Before, I was feeling quite angry at the world; I know; it has been my mood for sometime now; this is for obvious reasons and if people can't deal with that, it is not my problem.
As I explained once before in here, at the end of last year, my life seemed like it was all of a sudden picking up; except for getting my Joy, all the other promises once again proved wrong when everything else fell back down again.
As I think i also mentioned in the past, this LJ will probably become more friends only, and I do publically apologize to those who can't benefit from that, but it's my journal; the only one i use and I need to be able to vent more without knowing some people can read it hence feeling humiliated
The other week, I did a minny friends cut, saying I may extend this; I just have. And I'm serious this time; no going back (as i have in the past with a couple of people. (Indeed K and I made up, so I added him back, because apart from our grumbles with each other sometimes, he is one of my true friends). As has become an LJ cliche with these things, I haven't cut to be mean. Neither have I actually done it for any power-trip reasons (which i admit, may have been reason/s in the past). Moreover, I have cut a couple of people I consider good friends; there's a good reason why I did it though; As this LJ is becoming more of a place I'm going to feel comfortable confiding everything to at a protected level, said people do not update their LJs much or at all, and I don't think it's fair they get access to my life like an open book.
Others though, claim they are friends, but they are not.
And others I of course haven't clicked with, or have stopped clicking with.
Moreover, there may be just one or two LJs still there that I very much enjoy reading, even though we may not talk often.
OK enough with that crap.
I am thinking now that it's mid-week, the chances of me getting this job are getting slim, and that makes me angry; angry because I have spent hours volunteering for this organization, but no, the manager wouldn't be aware of this, because, as usual with the head ones there these days, they come and go at such a rapid rate and consequently, wouldn't even have had the chance of meeting us and seeing what we've done in the past. -- i shall make this known if they have the courtesy to get back to me and let me know I didn't get the job.
I have started worksheet one of ITE1. I've delt with one job description; I will do the others later.
Might go and give the dogs a run outside now. Then after Doctor Phil, I go and do some shopping. Was thinking, may still go to the gym tomorrow regardless of my hoping to go overseas.
Til Next time, RdFreak
