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rdfreakI hope I'm not getting sick!
Last night I found it hard to breathe through nose and I kept sneezing - needless to say, there was a time when I couldn't sleep, so I ended up having to get up, get the tissue box and, as I felt sitting up may help, played with my franklin language master for a while which I got out (by way of memory listening to an old mainmenu review of one a couple of days ago. .. Last time I used it, the batteries seemed like they were dying, so while out yesterday with Loscha, I bought a big pack of batteries. yet, these current batteries seem fine now so whatever.) anyway, was trying to relearn how to use it last night, til I got tired of having to stick my hands out of the covers so I just listened to radio (3AW) for a while til I drifted off at about 5, and had really interesting dreams about U.k and everyone there.
now my nose seems clear again though it is kinda sore from the relatively few times (actually) I blew it last night - stupid thing. Though my eye has stopped flickering it seems, it was for a little bit last night.
My ear is still kinda blocking so maybe off to doc after Heartly. so yes, I feel a bit, not myself today.
And while suffering last night, it occured to me how many people are just not doing the right things by me.
Yesterday, while on phone to shell, she informs me that she said to Chris he has to apologize to me before he can come here again. Sure, I told her to say that if he starts on at her about wanting to catch up with myself and them at the same time, but otherwise I would have rather she'd left it. but ah well. he says, no, he's not apologizing. Quite frankly, it's his loss. I don't much care about it at all since he always use to call when he was soba and talk about absolutely nothing anyway. So it's no great loss. It disappoints me greatly though how he can be such a bast--- to people and not care about his actions. adding to that, he does nothing but lie to people, and a typical non-apologetic bloke! He's got a lot to learn and he can now do so without my care; I'm done and out.
As for the others, we well know about them so we won't go there. But, I must say I'm starting to get to a point where I'm getting tired of knowing these idiots are out there, and they are never to be remorceful! adding to that, these idiots, (plus another said friend quarrel - which I do believe can and should be resolved -- mis-communication and past issues, etc) are all blind. For the most part (minus the recent friendship blue) I am hating the blind community more and more, even though not all of the blindys are causing problems for me. It's just that they all know everyone. I just feel I need a break from the blindys altogether for a while - at least that's how I felt last night and now.
that's why it's refreshing to be gaining more sighted friends as I had lost most of them - partly my fault, partly lifes fault and partly theirs.
anyway enough of that crap; I just hate the way some people feel they can treat me. and, it's obvious that if I'd move I still wouldn't get away from them cos they're everywhere! (retoricle question) but how come it is, the last time I ever had a fight with a sighty was in school, maybe even primary school? How come I only see petty people in the freakin clicky blindy community?
I'm not down on everyone, as I say, but for goodness sakes people (and I'm even shouting out to my non-LJ readers here): as my user bio said, "I will treat you exactly how you treat me". .. I could go on forever, it seems so, I will stop and, play the glad game, (as my Nan use to always tell us to do - from that movie Pollyanna, which I never ended up watching fully btw).
Heartly is going to vet at 11.20 today, so will leave here at 11 just to be safe. Heartly doesn't always like to find the vet for me without a fight, (I wonder why?) anyway, will be all from me til I have something else worth raving/ranting about.
Oh, still not sure if I'm going to rye at easter, think I will be though.
Til next time, RdFreak
Last night I found it hard to breathe through nose and I kept sneezing - needless to say, there was a time when I couldn't sleep, so I ended up having to get up, get the tissue box and, as I felt sitting up may help, played with my franklin language master for a while which I got out (by way of memory listening to an old mainmenu review of one a couple of days ago. .. Last time I used it, the batteries seemed like they were dying, so while out yesterday with Loscha, I bought a big pack of batteries. yet, these current batteries seem fine now so whatever.) anyway, was trying to relearn how to use it last night, til I got tired of having to stick my hands out of the covers so I just listened to radio (3AW) for a while til I drifted off at about 5, and had really interesting dreams about U.k and everyone there.
now my nose seems clear again though it is kinda sore from the relatively few times (actually) I blew it last night - stupid thing. Though my eye has stopped flickering it seems, it was for a little bit last night.
My ear is still kinda blocking so maybe off to doc after Heartly. so yes, I feel a bit, not myself today.
And while suffering last night, it occured to me how many people are just not doing the right things by me.
Yesterday, while on phone to shell, she informs me that she said to Chris he has to apologize to me before he can come here again. Sure, I told her to say that if he starts on at her about wanting to catch up with myself and them at the same time, but otherwise I would have rather she'd left it. but ah well. he says, no, he's not apologizing. Quite frankly, it's his loss. I don't much care about it at all since he always use to call when he was soba and talk about absolutely nothing anyway. So it's no great loss. It disappoints me greatly though how he can be such a bast--- to people and not care about his actions. adding to that, he does nothing but lie to people, and a typical non-apologetic bloke! He's got a lot to learn and he can now do so without my care; I'm done and out.
As for the others, we well know about them so we won't go there. But, I must say I'm starting to get to a point where I'm getting tired of knowing these idiots are out there, and they are never to be remorceful! adding to that, these idiots, (plus another said friend quarrel - which I do believe can and should be resolved -- mis-communication and past issues, etc) are all blind. For the most part (minus the recent friendship blue) I am hating the blind community more and more, even though not all of the blindys are causing problems for me. It's just that they all know everyone. I just feel I need a break from the blindys altogether for a while - at least that's how I felt last night and now.
that's why it's refreshing to be gaining more sighted friends as I had lost most of them - partly my fault, partly lifes fault and partly theirs.
anyway enough of that crap; I just hate the way some people feel they can treat me. and, it's obvious that if I'd move I still wouldn't get away from them cos they're everywhere! (retoricle question) but how come it is, the last time I ever had a fight with a sighty was in school, maybe even primary school? How come I only see petty people in the freakin clicky blindy community?
I'm not down on everyone, as I say, but for goodness sakes people (and I'm even shouting out to my non-LJ readers here): as my user bio said, "I will treat you exactly how you treat me". .. I could go on forever, it seems so, I will stop and, play the glad game, (as my Nan use to always tell us to do - from that movie Pollyanna, which I never ended up watching fully btw).
Heartly is going to vet at 11.20 today, so will leave here at 11 just to be safe. Heartly doesn't always like to find the vet for me without a fight, (I wonder why?) anyway, will be all from me til I have something else worth raving/ranting about.
Oh, still not sure if I'm going to rye at easter, think I will be though.
Til next time, RdFreak
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Date: 2007-04-04 01:29 am (UTC)you have a lot of emotions there that seem to swallowing you up
hope you can get pst this angst some day
:)
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Date: 2007-04-04 02:12 am (UTC)Cheers!
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Date: 2007-04-04 04:16 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-04-04 04:26 am (UTC)