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OK now it's time to gripe! gripe gripe gripe! I got on the Net bright and early as I could and stuff, and, i just downloaded my email and .. out of about fifteen since I obviously checked last night, only two of them were real emails! the rest were spam! how dodgy! including a yahoogroups message which, someone had obviously used my email address to subscribe to a yahoogroup; how nice of them to do that one?! Don't tell me that that's what spam is starting to turn intoo?! Spam is evil! internet crime big time! *grrrr*
OK on another note, I had a dream - it was a dream about an LJ friend; none other than![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
healoneismyrock
OK well I was obviously in Canada though I kinda didn't know that in my dream. anyway I went to her house and she didn't realize this. I was aiming to surprise her by showing up. anyway I was hanging with all her other siblings - well I remember being in a pool/spa kinda thing with a 14-year old girl and we were just chattin and stuff, and I was wondering how I was going to surprise her. First I didn't even know where she was. and as I didn't have my bathers and I was in my clothes, I was panicking in case she thought rude of me to be surprising her with my dripping-wet clothes. (yeah it was very strange) and her other siblings kept introing themselves to me but not her!
Anyway i eventually got out and mannaged to get myself dry while talking to different people.
I never did meet poor![[profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
healoneismyrock which I was kinda mad about as I woke up! :( anyway my dream scene changed (as they do in dreams) to me being in a place I have no idea, and I was given a blanket and told that wrapped up inside was a baby bird. So I unwrapped it and said to her siblings (that were still with me) I have a baby bird here, and there was nothing there just a blanket!
heh. my dreams are never, ever logical! they never make sense; they jump all over the place! and i was sad that my dream never allowed me to meet my LJ buddy and msn friend. (not that I've been sociable on there lately; sorry!
anyway that's about all. Nothing much happened since I last wrote since it was only last night. But I have been reading a lot ofrickybuchanan's LJ and her journal on her personal web site and am hoping she is OK as I haven't had a reply from my comment or had her add me back but it's taught me soo much and I really admire how she copes! And my depression can be sooo trivial. So yeah have been spending a lot of time there and like I say, really really hope she's OK.
I am in a strange mood - a bit dazed still, yet I got up anyway! I am about to go have breakfast.
Mum called me last night while I was on line. She had said that she just called me to say hi and stuff. I wondered if she felt guilty cos of yesterday when she was ignoring me a little. It hurt me. It hurts me how she treats me sometimes. And I hate it that she's always soo nice to me when it's just us two - like if I'm there and dad's in sydney and a is somewhere else and/or when she is driving me to docs appointment or Psychologists'. It really hurts me, and especially that she denies that! *grrrr* Or maybe it was just that, when we were talking about if she regrets having kids I againslipped in my truth of how I wish I had never been born. It's starting to sink in as oppose to everyone thinking i'm talking rubbish!
Oh well, obviously I am here for a reason or two but haven't noticed them yet. God will show me in his own good time (now that quote reminds me of the Sound of Music - what the reverent Mother told Maria!)
OK off to have breakfast.
Til Next Time, RdFreak
OK on another note, I had a dream - it was a dream about an LJ friend; none other than
healoneismyrockOK well I was obviously in Canada though I kinda didn't know that in my dream. anyway I went to her house and she didn't realize this. I was aiming to surprise her by showing up. anyway I was hanging with all her other siblings - well I remember being in a pool/spa kinda thing with a 14-year old girl and we were just chattin and stuff, and I was wondering how I was going to surprise her. First I didn't even know where she was. and as I didn't have my bathers and I was in my clothes, I was panicking in case she thought rude of me to be surprising her with my dripping-wet clothes. (yeah it was very strange) and her other siblings kept introing themselves to me but not her!
Anyway i eventually got out and mannaged to get myself dry while talking to different people.
I never did meet poor
healoneismyrock which I was kinda mad about as I woke up! :( anyway my dream scene changed (as they do in dreams) to me being in a place I have no idea, and I was given a blanket and told that wrapped up inside was a baby bird. So I unwrapped it and said to her siblings (that were still with me) I have a baby bird here, and there was nothing there just a blanket!heh. my dreams are never, ever logical! they never make sense; they jump all over the place! and i was sad that my dream never allowed me to meet my LJ buddy and msn friend. (not that I've been sociable on there lately; sorry!
anyway that's about all. Nothing much happened since I last wrote since it was only last night. But I have been reading a lot of
rickybuchanan's LJ and her journal on her personal web site and am hoping she is OK as I haven't had a reply from my comment or had her add me back but it's taught me soo much and I really admire how she copes! And my depression can be sooo trivial. So yeah have been spending a lot of time there and like I say, really really hope she's OK.I am in a strange mood - a bit dazed still, yet I got up anyway! I am about to go have breakfast.
Mum called me last night while I was on line. She had said that she just called me to say hi and stuff. I wondered if she felt guilty cos of yesterday when she was ignoring me a little. It hurt me. It hurts me how she treats me sometimes. And I hate it that she's always soo nice to me when it's just us two - like if I'm there and dad's in sydney and a is somewhere else and/or when she is driving me to docs appointment or Psychologists'. It really hurts me, and especially that she denies that! *grrrr* Or maybe it was just that, when we were talking about if she regrets having kids I againslipped in my truth of how I wish I had never been born. It's starting to sink in as oppose to everyone thinking i'm talking rubbish!
Oh well, obviously I am here for a reason or two but haven't noticed them yet. God will show me in his own good time (now that quote reminds me of the Sound of Music - what the reverent Mother told Maria!)
OK off to have breakfast.
Til Next Time, RdFreak
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Yeah, most of what I get these days is spam. I used to get email every day, but not since I have been on IM. Ah well. It's all right that we haven't talked on msn lately!
I hope your friend is okay. Sorry about the situation with your mom... I hope things work out for you two.
God will show me in His time... now that is something I like to say! :-) His timing is perfect, and so, so much better than mine!
"My times are in Thy [God's] hand:" Psalm 31:15 (http://www.mielke.cc/bible/Psalms/031.html#15)
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