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Well as it turns out I signed into messenger as 'on the phone but at this minute that is lying to all my faitful online friends. Lol the fact is, that I did just try and give JH a call but she aint home by the sounds of it. good luck to her, in all this rain but oh well! Lol .. I just did some more twinkling on the piano and it's soo cool; I am starting to sound more professional with my songs! Yesterday I did go to Burwood and we worked on a lot of intervals and key points of a scale, kinda trying to figure out how I'd play the same song in different keys (well I guess am doing more of that working out at home) and so that was cool, and BW and I started working out a piece (well I did - guess she brailled one each for us so she knew it Lol) and I have got it to work on this week. It is "Beethoven - slow movement( II)
From the 7th symphony. Kasshau book 2 pages 4 - 5
man it's like got 21 bars, probably, well it is in fact the biggest song I'll be learning using music.
I guess Read sing And Play has served its purpose in my life, even though i got it when i was like 13, 14, not having touched it after my teen-attempt at learning music for 10 years Lol, nearly getting chucked out before I moved here but then, was too sentamental about chucking all me memories out and placed it into my "for keeps" pile.
So yeah yesterday at Burwood I was also playing Greensleaves and, I was (and still have) been practicing on what I call a "professional left-hand accompaniment". and all these other well-known tunes which I am playing in other keys now! wohoo! it's so cool! And B was explaining to me how the double intervals worked since, I did kinda get it when JH tried to explain to me but then I kinda forgot. so now I can go on with my zizuki book too.
DH came in while I was there and despite her being the first one to go to with my renewed interest, I find i am really self-conscious and immediately stopped what i was doing when I heard her come in. (I spoke to her more the week before actually. I am soooo shyish sometimes) .. anyway .. I am also selfconscious it would seem when I am meant to be learning the piece for myself in front of B. for the reason, I sounded a bit sillier and more unknoledgable than i actually was, cos i like learning them at home without .. knowing that my stuff-ups will be heard. so hence I actually learn stuff a lot quicker at home! ..
anyway since obviously my lovely phone posts haven't been working properly of late, the week before at Burwood we did a lot of work on rhythms and timing and all that. then at the end I was getting all the extra dotty things explained to me from ecosaes in my zozuki book.
ah yes, so my phone posts have been acting weird lately. It seems that when I go to download them, they are only half there, and if I come back to try downloading again a little later, more appears but not all (as far as I know from last time anyway) so I'm thinking will give those things a miss for a while.
anyway this week was much internetness! mmm I've discovered that it aint my end which is having the connecctions to tpg. Tuesday it wasn't connecting, giving me the 'no dial tone" error, and then about an hour later, it connected out of it's own accord. Then had no other probs til this morning. same thing, so called dad and he came over, and just as he was looking at the two lights on the ADSL modem he said one green one was flashing then it came on. then my connection worked. so it's something to do with telstra's connection with my line I know it for sure now. so next time it happens I will call tpg back and tell them that. cos i couldn't confirm it the other day with them cos I "can't see any lights; I'm blind" he actually stopped repeating the question when I announced that I was "blind" not "vision impaired".
.. yeah apart from that, I called Lifeline and they sent me out some information and stuff which i left in dad's car from the other night when I was over there for tea, so got to get someone to read me the info. Also have been talking to DC about the radio course at CSA. I'm scared of Clarke but will call Monday I guess.
Have been on Ventrilo a lot lately talking to people like L, C, D, A, E, CH L, and J a bit(when he feels like it :( and a few more I'd say. (the lettering aint making much sense but oh well I know who I mean at least :) and been using skype a bit too. and I have really enforced that rule. i now do not reply to authorizations from anybody to skype these days cos random people annoy me, and especially when they don't bother to tell me who they are when requesting they got no chance at all!
Last Saturday was Bec's 21st at the Point overlooking Albert Park lake. that was a good day but I felt very crappy as it seemed I missed zoloft the day before!
Last night I felt crap too! about 10 my time

sugar84 went to talk to me on ventrilo and I had been in bed listening to something on Englands Capital FM and all of a sudden felt really grumpy and real bitchy and didn't get up to talk. just fell asleep and woke later and turned my puter off! I've been weird lately but guess there a lot of things going on, or lack of anything - both really. I dunno life has been very puzzling of late (but when is it not?! so have been working through a bit and contemplating the future and all.
I think I have been caught up in a few zone dramas of late which I should stop doing. It seems that there are some people out there in this big bad world who have nothing better to do than to start dramas/fights by personally attacking people just because they can and they're bored! Of course "normal???" people can't take that, but I guess I must get use to it, and people will play with the net sometimes. I was having a discussion of sorts the other day in fact. people reacting/interacting online verses person and how different or similar they can be to different people. I say so often that with me "what you see is what you get" with me no matter if it is online.
OK I feel this was a little long and I'd probably prefer to keep these a bit shorter which means, I will hopefully feel a little more inclined to write in this a little more frequently than I have done so lately.
so til, ..
Next time, RdFreak

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consider yaself lucky then. those idiots can really upset me as is if they do it face-to-face. One day I ought to actually track em down and have some words with their internet service provider. Reporting net crime might, and hopefully should, be something to thik about for the future.

I'm sorry but I really don't understand it, on the internet, like in the real world, you get peple who are assholes and who are nasty, so what ..I really don't understand what's the big deal, the person doesn't even know you, in real life there are people that steal, fight , kill, if you think that's bad, would you rather have some idiot say some nasty crap about you or have someone pull a knife or even a gun to your head and try to kill you because you wouldn't give them all your money..I spent 2 years living in a country where there was a civil war, I almost got killed several times, I saw my best friend shot wright in front of me, and we sit here and worry about someone who gets pleasure about writing some words about someone on the net who they never even met?

P.S no offence or anything, jmjust my personal thoughts..

well pardon me if I get upset with some idiot personally attacking me or my friends for no apparent reason. it's just as bad as verbal abuse in my opinion and they get to me! You're lucky that you can read over it, but any abuse will not be tolerated in my books and it is abuse. I treat the internet, again, I say as I would in every day life/interactions. I will *not be flamed or attacked from an idiot who doesn't know any better. sure, they don't know anything about us - they may not do, they may do, but it doesn't matter. it's a person with those cowardly thoughts in their head.
of course I know war and violence is worse - it always is. You can't compare something like that to what we're talking about it. whether it's every day verbal abuse or war, they're both too different to compare.
Good on you if you can let people just say things. it's the internet, afterall!

OK I guess I didn't make my self totally clear and I do apologise for that and yes maybe you can't compare net flames with real wars. When I started this I was not refering to people personally atacking you, saying things that are not true or maybe even publicizing things ont the internet about you that you don't want them other people to know. I was rather refering to people who seem to react on any little thing, I mean surely there's a difference if someone calls you some nasty swareword and when someone write whole page of nasty stuff about you or makes some alagations about you. OK I can't either just read over something that people say, especially if they're trying to say things that may not be true. So no, I'm not saying that I cahnged my opinion, I am just saying that in principle I agree and all the way through this discussion have agreed with you that any personal atack, especially when it becomes personal and if it was unprovoked can cause people to be upset and quite understandibly so, all I was trying to say that as much as there are idiots outthere who got nothing better to do than sit on net messageboards/newsgroups and atack just anyone just for the hell of it, there is other extreme where there are people who got nothing better to do than get upset about any little bord post that might have a swareword or a sexual reference in it and make it look like it's most terrible thing that ever happen in their life and they're so upset that they'll never be bale to live the same way just because of that message. So, I apologise again if I upset you with my comments as they weren't very clear, but to conclude, I totally understand you or any other person being upset if someone makes personal atacks/alagations on the net, but I also think that some people also complain far too much about very little things that are really not important and relevant, but I guess when you think about it really it is a bit like in real life, people send letters to radio/tv broadcasters when they hear even a small thing because they find it offencive s

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