rdfreak | 15 days! :)

OK so 15 more days to go and now I am just damn impatient Lol! I'm so bored - my fault really! I'm being a lazy little thingomejiggy person!
Lol i spent all morning mucking around with this voice-changing program demo that

americanaussie1 explained about in her lJ! it's awesome! :) I was talking to the mic for hours this morning! Lol It's not too jaws friendly but hopefully they'll change that. I will also be writing to them! but, considering it's kind of a small program, I mean, with not much publicity (I hadn't heard of it) I somehow doubt it, but maybe. I dunno who they listen to and why, and all that!
I've been doing a lot of thinking. Lol I am always doing too much thinking, but, last night I'm thinking how emotionally involved I've got with people lately and then for whatever reason, I find myself getting slapped in the face. So, I am not going to allow myself to get emotional over a guy, or a girl. I was thinking how much of a hastle it always turns out to be emotionally. (am not saying I wanna be physical without the emotions, no way) what I'm saying is that I think I will be better off without a relationship, or without giving in to temptations. I mean hey, I may be bored of life now but there's always things to do - networking, etc. who needs relationships? they're just too confusing and complicating and stuff. Maybe I just need my friends. will leave the other to whoever wants to be upset and depressed. it's not me! I don't wanna get hurt any more. I just told myself last night that I feel within me I have my life finally sorted out so why would I feel the need to go bac to square one? (OK so who knows? I will probably find I'm totally the opposite of this in ten years time? maybe) but now at least, I can't understand why I'd want to get hurt again! Also sometimes people will play games without realizing it. face it, I do not understand guys. I don't think I ever will. And as one girl said on BigBrother last night, girls are sooo bitchy. I really can't win either way, so why bother?! Just be happy with the friends you have, and the future ones you will make, and having the ability to hopefully travel further and wider in the future! so that's what my little brain was ticking about last night!
and I had wanted to say something else here but I side-tracked myself in a big way! hmmm doh!
ah that voice program is cool though!
and now I go wash dishes while watching the rest of Doctor Phil!
Til Next Time, RdFreak

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Wow only 15 days! It has flown!!! Not long ago you were up in the 100's! Time goes by too fast.
That's some good thinking you have on relationships. I've been thinking the same thing, that I try to give the best of myself and I get slapped in the face, and it hurts having it happen over and over again.

I know - it's sooo amazing counting down from the hundreds :)
and yeah .. I dunno .. seems like we're all about getting hurt! we need to just quit while we're ahead! :) < 333

You've got it girl! You'll be the happier for it!
Watch out though, what happened to me, may well happen to you someday. I mean, what i have with Simon.
But in the meantime, live for Rachel, don't worry about the rest if it can be helped.

ah thanks Darl! yes, what you have with Simon is amazing, and yeah maybe; I mean ya never know what's around the corner! Lol just thinking out loud - well in the old journal! Lol *huggles* you're so thoughtful! :)

Hey well as so far the only guy to reply to this, first of all just to say, not all of us guys are like that. I know there are a lot of freaks weirdos and assholes outthere or simply guys that don't understnand things, but not all of us are like that. You won't always get hurt. I know we had our little disagreements, but when we did, I honestly didn't mean to hurt you or do wrong things with the intention to piss you of, but I really think you're a nice person and you deserve to be respected anthat you should be treated with respect because you sure deserve it! So like Lisa said you never know what might happen, you never know what's around the corner, so don't give up.

P.S my jaws is not reading properlly what I'm writing and for some reason I can't read it back even if I get out of forms mode, so sorry if most of this comment doesn't make sence, but hopefully you know what I meant.d treated

hey that was pretty good! stupid jaws, wonder what's wrong with it? *grr .. well thank you IK! I realize you didn't mean to hurt me. I guess sometimes people just think and percieve things differently and expect slightly different things from their friends! hmm ah well. over now, and you're a great person and laugh to have around! :)
and yes, if it's meant to be some day I guess I shouldn't be stubborn and not go for it lol! but yeah, there needs to be soooo much trust and communication to be kinda as content as one can be. .. now I am not sure if that made sense, oh well! Lol *hugs*

aww thank you, yeah like you said it was missunderstandings and it's over and I'm glad because i honestly did miss you while we kinda weren't talking. Yes, I totally agree, trust and open comunication is very important and if you've been hurt in the past like I too have been, it's so hard to know who to trust or to know when is the time that maybe you should be trusting someone...it's hard, but you can do it, I'm sure there's someone outthere who will be able to see what qulitties you have as a person and give you the respect you deserve...loOK anyway I guess I better go to bed as you know that I'm going away for my little...erm...fun filled weekend? Well it should be interesting anyway, I just finished packing..yeah I know crazy at 3 in the morning but I always do my packing last minute lol..OK talk to you soon. *hugs*

yep I did miss ya too! ..hey have heaps of fun on the weekend. best of luck! Lol < 3333333

My sentiments exactly, Rachel; this is why I haven't gotten involved yet. I'm nto ready, and furthermore i odn't need relationships now when I'm so happy and contented with what I have. It's jsut asking for trouble. When I'm ready, I'll know, and then I'll take thigns as they come, I think.
Caitli nxoxoxoxooxoxoxxx

Lol thanks CaitCait! and I am happy that you're so happy and content now! keep that going! :) < 3333333

Awww thanks WdFweak. I wuv you!
XOOXOXOXOXX,
Caitcait

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