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mmhmm
so I dohn't understand why I'm doing this to myself? when I've got boxes of zoloft there and I'm not doing a thing to help myself at least a tad. from tomorrow I will start to take it again. Funny how when I'm away I don't feel I need them. and I don't. when I was in UK I kinda stopped taking them and it was fine! but life was fun then! now I literally feel like everything has fallen down around me, and I just honestly don't understand what's happened since I left and came back! Everything just feels so different! I just want to be in UK. ah well, I've just been back a week! Lol I'm nuts!
I'm practicing some net broadcasting right now.
I should be out taking Heartly somewhere. instead I'm a bitch to her too!
My little cousin Bec was married Friday! I did enjoy myself especially at the reception! The ceremony was really nice though. Ang was bridesmaid along with some other friends of Bec's. I was asked last year but I declined. It would have been a lot of work and walking on points (which I just totally hate). But Ang enjoyed it!
anyway Mum helped me with makeup and stuff in the morning, then she left and dad came to pick me up a few hours later. then we picked up T then Nan and were just in time to see Bridesmaid walk in the church which Nan was starting to panick about. so they got out the car and I went with him to park it. then we walked in a tad late. I was very emotional anyway but cos my little cousin was getting married! Then after the cathlic version of the ceromony we went outside got various photos taken, then our family and M and J went back to Nan's. T was there but ang stayed getting more photos with bridal group. We had some nibblies then went to the reception place - overnewton castle built in 1849 apparently! it was really nice! We sat in the loundge bit for a while and had a few nibblies then went to our respective tables. then we had entraes - three chicken strips with lovely honey sauce laying in a bed of greated letuce and other stuff. Then they had the only speech by Kev which was lovely. then him and Bec had their first dance, then others did. I danced with dad. then we had main course - I had chicken breast stuffed with tomatoe and mushrooms and vegies which were just in a bowl on the table. Then after main course, more dancing. I danced then with Dad again, Mum, Ang even Nan and aunt Jul for a good long while. i looved the collection of music. was really good! a few oldies but mostly early 90's which is definitely what I prefer.
then after a while we had dessert -- chocolate bowl filled with fruit salad. then more random dancing. then there was cheese and biscuits to finish off and tea and coffee and port. It was lovely.
then we all congregated while Bec and Kev said goodbye to everyone and went to a hotel for the night. then we left and I fell asleep in car on way home. Ang came too.
then yesterday we were all meant to go to their place to see them open presents. I didn't end up going though I had planned too.
tomorrow is labour day so public holiday. will have to wait til tuesday before I get in touch with the writing course.
though I had fun Friday, I need to get out more! I learnt a lot about myself in Preston, and one was that I very much valued having plenty to do. I am not going to allow myself to get into another internet rut. But when I think about it, it's just cos I had the year off last year. though I am doing something this year the subject is online.
I'm also getting my poor old dying braillenote transplanted into an m-power. It was illuded that I was wanting to send it in straight away but I need to save up a bit first. still way cheaper than if I bought a new m-power outright.
looks like i may not need to save up for a puter any more. Dad actually has a spare one at home! so yeah! he bought one but then got this from work. pentiam 3. will have to stick more ram in it though. it's small though; not like the tower I've got now. and it's quiet! So m-power, pay back debts and look for cheaper deals to UK again! I could have done better with last and this year's travel ajent. may make sure I see more London.
I can hear a car. is it parents? Heartly seems excited at any rate! hmm maybe not! OK
Til next Time, RdFreak
I'm practicing some net broadcasting right now.
I should be out taking Heartly somewhere. instead I'm a bitch to her too!
My little cousin Bec was married Friday! I did enjoy myself especially at the reception! The ceremony was really nice though. Ang was bridesmaid along with some other friends of Bec's. I was asked last year but I declined. It would have been a lot of work and walking on points (which I just totally hate). But Ang enjoyed it!
anyway Mum helped me with makeup and stuff in the morning, then she left and dad came to pick me up a few hours later. then we picked up T then Nan and were just in time to see Bridesmaid walk in the church which Nan was starting to panick about. so they got out the car and I went with him to park it. then we walked in a tad late. I was very emotional anyway but cos my little cousin was getting married! Then after the cathlic version of the ceromony we went outside got various photos taken, then our family and M and J went back to Nan's. T was there but ang stayed getting more photos with bridal group. We had some nibblies then went to the reception place - overnewton castle built in 1849 apparently! it was really nice! We sat in the loundge bit for a while and had a few nibblies then went to our respective tables. then we had entraes - three chicken strips with lovely honey sauce laying in a bed of greated letuce and other stuff. Then they had the only speech by Kev which was lovely. then him and Bec had their first dance, then others did. I danced with dad. then we had main course - I had chicken breast stuffed with tomatoe and mushrooms and vegies which were just in a bowl on the table. Then after main course, more dancing. I danced then with Dad again, Mum, Ang even Nan and aunt Jul for a good long while. i looved the collection of music. was really good! a few oldies but mostly early 90's which is definitely what I prefer.
then after a while we had dessert -- chocolate bowl filled with fruit salad. then more random dancing. then there was cheese and biscuits to finish off and tea and coffee and port. It was lovely.
then we all congregated while Bec and Kev said goodbye to everyone and went to a hotel for the night. then we left and I fell asleep in car on way home. Ang came too.
then yesterday we were all meant to go to their place to see them open presents. I didn't end up going though I had planned too.
tomorrow is labour day so public holiday. will have to wait til tuesday before I get in touch with the writing course.
though I had fun Friday, I need to get out more! I learnt a lot about myself in Preston, and one was that I very much valued having plenty to do. I am not going to allow myself to get into another internet rut. But when I think about it, it's just cos I had the year off last year. though I am doing something this year the subject is online.
I'm also getting my poor old dying braillenote transplanted into an m-power. It was illuded that I was wanting to send it in straight away but I need to save up a bit first. still way cheaper than if I bought a new m-power outright.
looks like i may not need to save up for a puter any more. Dad actually has a spare one at home! so yeah! he bought one but then got this from work. pentiam 3. will have to stick more ram in it though. it's small though; not like the tower I've got now. and it's quiet! So m-power, pay back debts and look for cheaper deals to UK again! I could have done better with last and this year's travel ajent. may make sure I see more London.
I can hear a car. is it parents? Heartly seems excited at any rate! hmm maybe not! OK
Til next Time, RdFreak
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hope things will work out for you in the best possible way
-Michelle.
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Hope you're OK and I just added your new account to my list. I'm behind on friends page so am not sure what you said if anything about you getting another account.
anyway I know I can be hopeless at staying in touch but don't go away will you?
Cheers! *hugs*
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but you're not only separated from him at this time, but you're also not sure if his plans will include that you'll be together in the future [?] So perhaps you need to find out where you really stand with him... so you don't keep hanging on to hopes and what if's... love is a great thing, but it can also be a painful thing.. for sure.
*I read all your posts and i'm going nowhere:]
oh and 'Shel' is good
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