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rdfreak ([personal profile] rdfreak) wrote2004-05-04 10:14 am

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MY LIFE IS A WEDGY -- in the famous words of GRETEL KILLEEN! a complete and utter wedgy! here's why:

Number 1. I didn't get on BigBrother! that sucks hard core because I'm soooo bored with it all
Number 2. I hate Swinburn and going there every day is just depressing me more and more because
Number 3. The stupid discriminating teachers don't understand that I strive to be as independent as I can if they only damn well give me a go!
Number 4. Because of these stupid teachers, I have to try and scan work in myself and/or arrange additional meetings with personal reader who offers to do my scanning and she shouldn't have too.
Number 5. I am blind -- nah never have I really gone through the phaze of totally dispising this blind thing but now it is just bringing me down in so many ways!
Number 6. I screwed up my stupid computer and
Number 7. I don't know much, if not anything about windows 2000 and
Number 8. This lead me to a tantrum throwing session.
Number 9. I am absolutely sick and tired of my friends not calling me any more. No-one calls me. I mean forget the fact if I'm not home I'm on the Net so they can't get through to me anyway. No-one tries any more. It's always me calling them and I am absolutely jack of it! especially when I go out of my way for people. One sided friendships are really really starting to piss me off!
Number 10. I have decided yet again I am too crushed to bother going into school today. I am wondering if I have used up my 20% of wagg sessions yet? so in other words when I am really really physically sick, I will have to go in order not to fail.
Number 11. My memory is hopeless - just hopeless! I can't rely on my short-term memory to save my freakin life.
Number 12. Since I worked on the library puter yesterday, the notes I made for my orral is on that puter. I didn't even bother to save it to the E drive so I can log into my student account from here and download it.
Number 13. I am fitting into my class less and less each freakin day.
Number 14. I am the most confused I have ever been in my life.
Number 15. I am still single, never been in a relationship and can't decide if it's a good or bad thing. It's always one-sided with me, never nutral feelings and that is pissing me off!
Number 16. Last night I called and got the message "the number you have called is not compatible with your equipment" which sucks cos the Met have blocked us being able to access the details over the phone, so ppl who live close to the station can't call and see when the next train is due.
Number 17. I can't make April fools pranks to the station and hack into their PA system and say "there are no trains running today"
Number 18. Jaws is lagging something shocking when I backspace and I don't want to muck around with the display settings too much.
Number 19. Because of last nights stupid problem in which stupid me decided to install Reelplayer 10 over a previous version, it couldn't hack that so the wizzard asked me to uninstall the other, so I clicked yes and wasn't patient enough so I rebooted and now it takes *ages to start, and when jaws finally does come on it says something to do with network settings and then after another good five minutes, it says "loading personal settings, please wait" yeah right?!
Number 20. I love windows 2000 as it seems very stable except for this stuff it's doing to me. i'm tooo impatient so it has stuffed it all up and RVIB N couldn't really tell me what to do except reinstall reelplayer and uninstall again.
Number 21. This freaking well means that I haven't been able to listen to BigBrother streaming yet which really sucks as I'd wanted to tune into them when they were kinda still new with each other and getting to know each other. If I can't be there, cos BigBrother is discriminating, can't I freakin be there in spirit?
Number 22. (but maybe should be at number 1) I have been a really really bad christian lately and no wonder I'm dealing with what I am.)
I daren't go on. Too sickening.

O (stories cultures teacher) wasn't there yesterday. well apparently she got there at 11 but no-one waited around for that. I did. I went to the library and worked on *my computer* Lol haha! my puter with jaws. was working on my orral and wish I'd emailed myself the notes or uploaded them to my E space or something! Now I am really motivated to work on it today but I can't. Unless I try and remember what I'd done and continue. ah who knows! I need to really be at school.
Tried to call s last night as he's expert knowledge on 2000 may have helped but wasn't there! Then before that in my rage I was cursing everyone for never calling me any more, despite the fact I am on the net. at least they can leave a message so I know they're trying. and certain folk have never heard of the Yes deal, it would seem.
I need ADSL and I think I'm going to get it. Will have another look at dodo's pricing! I love their "unlimitted downloads" for 64 a month but their installation fee is way too expensive! But at least I'll have faster internet (more like school. that just amazes me. I click on the link and it's there two seconds later!) at least I'll also have a spare phone line and ppl won't have an excuse then, otherwise it's a "bye bye" to them, right?! I called Centrelink on Friday cos for ages now I could have been getting the pension education supliment and also mobility allowence - 120 extra bucks a fortnight. I definitely need it!
At least I didn't stuff up me modem!
OK off to try and get the number of student unions counselling services.
Class starts in 25 minutes.
In the words of my new LJ friend [livejournal.com profile] bithablue I quit!!!

[identity profile] missmojorisin.livejournal.com 2004-05-03 05:34 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs*
is there a course coordinator you can talk to about the teachers issue?

[identity profile] rdfreak.livejournal.com 2004-05-03 06:04 pm (UTC)(link)
thanks! Well the course co-ordinator is one of my worst enemies in all of this so that's the really bad thing! I might try the disability leason officers again today though I haven't had much luck with them as they're under-staffed and there's not even one on my campus.
I am not usually one to complain and I'm sorry you heard it though I realize this is LJ. I am just very confused right now! I guess I've pretended to be happy and sweet for too long! oh well
Happy happy joy joy! Should go and take my zoloft and have breakfast. maybe that would be a good start!
thanks darlsh *hugs* you're really soooo sweet! :)

whos ya course convenor?

[identity profile] theirishduck.livejournal.com 2004-05-03 10:01 pm (UTC)(link)
I used to go to Swinny, remember

Re: whos ya course convenor?

[identity profile] rdfreak.livejournal.com 2004-05-03 10:09 pm (UTC)(link)
um, I don't actually, sorry. did you? how cool! how long ago? did you like it?

[identity profile] theirishduck.livejournal.com 2004-05-03 10:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah I liked it at Swinny very small and homely. I finished my 2nd degree in 2000.