friendship - for good or for bad

[rdfreak]

OK that little cow in my journal last night largely related to the few so-called friendsin my life of late.
Over the past few weeks I have come to realize many things about friends. -- I'd come to realize that there are a few people in my life who I call friends, or may even like to still be considered as friends, even though if it wasn't for my contacting them, I'd never hear from them. -- I'd come to realize I'd been doing this for some time now, and it takes a lot of energy out of me.
Friendship is a two way street, why no? -- you contact me, i contact you the next time, not I contact you, I contact you again the next time, and the next time ... honestly?!
I admit that I am not always good at keeping in contact with friends as I should, but this is not what I'm talking about. -- the people i am talking about are mainly RL friends, though some of them do exist on my LJ page, and i am not going to mention them because: A it's a public post and I wouldn't humiliate them, and B there are varying degrese of it, and C this is mainly for myself, not anyone else.
If people want to be a friend of mine, show me that.
Again, i have no energy any more to keep on chasing people.
I know my true friends, ie. the ones that want to be friends with me because they share in their duties of staying in touch with me. I have plenty of them, which I have been able to re-afirm over these past weeks, and I am extremely greatful.
In related stuff, I have had opportunity to rekindle some friendships lately, so I've got to do my part before it's too late; and that, I will do.
anyway, that was the cow from last night I had. i was just looking at some Facebook pages actually, and it re-affirmed what I've had to do to continue to get some people's attention. it doesn't work like that. Do what you do.
til next time, RdFreak

Comments

[amazingstar.livejournal.com]

I hear what you're saying. I too am guilty of not being as good at keeping in touch, but it's really difficult to make the effort when you know the other person or people aren't going to go to any length to contact you...So why do we bother? Lol. I ask myself that far too often. :)

[rdfreak.livejournal.com]

yeh, I wasn't referring to you either by the way! Although, in terms of you and I, we didn't see eye to eye for a while.
who knows; I promise will keep in touch with ya! :)

[amazingstar.livejournal.com]

Haha, I didn't think you were just because I would hope you'd come to me like you did before if something was amiss.
Honestly, it really is the timezone difference and that we're both really busy people but I do value your friendship. :)