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rdfreak ([personal profile] rdfreak) wrote2008-12-29 09:12 am
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friendship - for good or for bad

OK that little cow in my journal last night largely related to the few so-called friendsin my life of late.
Over the past few weeks I have come to realize many things about friends. -- I'd come to realize that there are a few people in my life who I call friends, or may even like to still be considered as friends, even though if it wasn't for my contacting them, I'd never hear from them. -- I'd come to realize I'd been doing this for some time now, and it takes a lot of energy out of me.
Friendship is a two way street, why no? -- you contact me, i contact you the next time, not I contact you, I contact you again the next time, and the next time ... honestly?!
I admit that I am not always good at keeping in contact with friends as I should, but this is not what I'm talking about. -- the people i am talking about are mainly RL friends, though some of them do exist on my LJ page, and i am not going to mention them because: A it's a public post and I wouldn't humiliate them, and B there are varying degrese of it, and C this is mainly for myself, not anyone else.
If people want to be a friend of mine, show me that.
Again, i have no energy any more to keep on chasing people.
I know my true friends, ie. the ones that want to be friends with me because they share in their duties of staying in touch with me. I have plenty of them, which I have been able to re-afirm over these past weeks, and I am extremely greatful.
In related stuff, I have had opportunity to rekindle some friendships lately, so I've got to do my part before it's too late; and that, I will do.
anyway, that was the cow from last night I had. i was just looking at some Facebook pages actually, and it re-affirmed what I've had to do to continue to get some people's attention. it doesn't work like that. Do what you do.
til next time, RdFreak

Re: friends

[identity profile] rdfreak.livejournal.com 2008-12-29 08:59 am (UTC)(link)
Kerry, I actually wasn't referring to you as one of "the people" either.
I do know you're there for me even though we don't talk heaps; you've already let me know this, and I know it hasn't changed.
I also haven't been the best at keeping the contact up with you, so no, you're not one of them, I promise! *hugs*