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I believe I wrote a journal entry in here last night, complaining about our week long extreme heat wave! -- well -- uh -- I have to write another one complaining about our week long extreme heat wave!
For the first time, I had the aircon on for half the night and it did work in here I think. this is because, as I stated last night, it only got down to 29; possibly didn't even get down there!
So it's already in the 30's, and I have a mum who offered to drive me into work today, so for that, i am extremely greatful! -- I will do something i haven't done before and leave my aircon on all day here as well.
I woke to a knock from RB's N70 phone that he gave me so I can put American english eloquence on there as he hates the british English one as much as I do. His alarm is not set, so no idea why it kept on knocking at me. there were no calls, so who knows!
What else did I have to say in here? nothing I guess; of consequence at the moment anyway. But there is this crazy meme going around on facebook called "25 random things", and I have been tagged; probably several times by now, but here goes with mine; assuming I can actually think of 25 random things. some of my friends are really so random, it's amazing!
1. There is this exercise thing I do with my mouth, which, when i was little, was considered one of those typical baby noises, but I still do it now as it's stimulating. can't explain how it goes or how it makes my jaw feel, but it's something that makes me complete.
2. I haven't had any of those heck annoying buzzy insects in this house for a number of years now, because I never leave doors open long enough even for them to attempt to get in; that's because I hate them with an unusually passionate passion.
3. My close friends know this, but most don't, but I suffer from Emetophobia. -- I'm actually not as bad these days as I was when I was younger. -- I use to lay there, wondering if death would be preferable to vomitting. -- When I was feeling sick and/or had a stomach bug, I would absolutely pray so hard that I wouldn't throw up. -- Likewise but not as severe, I just couldn't be around others who were, or had a chance, of being sick.
4. relating to the above, I was staying with a then-friend on the goldCoast in 03 and her kids all had the stomach flu. I would literally wash my hands after every single thing I touched in friends apartment; i was that frightened of getting it. fortunately I never did get it!
5. also relating to the above, I haven't had two minute noodles since before I threw up last time, about thirteen years ago. I was staying at J's place and was sick. she had them that morning, and the smell put me off for life!
6. (will try and get away from that now, but needless to say, I am glad i'm not alone in suffering that; even a couple of my closest friends keep me company here.
7. damn, I've got 17 things to go and I can't think of anything.! :(
8. I only got stung by a bee once when I was about 8, playing under a friends sprinkler, (I am wondering, as a sidenote, if these people on my facebook will remember this? :)
9. I have still got heaps of tootseyrolls left from my trip to America in July 05.
10. To those who don't know, i *hate hate hate being single and lonely and that's been apart of me throughout my 20's. I do fear I will be single for the rest of my life. (as it happens, I have a kindered spirit in my life, but am not sure what will happen as the situation is a complicated one which for now, stays in my locked entries; in an ideal world, we would be together now.
11. If I don't find a partner, I am thinking of doing the single-parent thing; my life would be so incomplete without children and that's the way I've felt since I was little.
12. I just got an email. ;)
13. They were all spam. 95% of my email is spam and it has been that way for about six years now!
14. I remember one time when I was probably about 7 or 8, I asked for a drink of water, and sis handed me one with a bit of soap in it; still don't know if it was done on purpose or not.
15. Everyone seems to hate the sound of their own voice, and I was no exception, but since i like recording so much, I made myself get use to mine.
16. for those who don't know, I walk around a lot with my head tilted to one side. apparently this has been the case since I was about five. The family theory is that, because I can see out of the corner of my right eye, maybe i was doing this at aged five, and it became a habbit. Throughout my childhood and teenage years, I was constantly told to ""put my head up straight" but it was always an effort; it still is i believe though I am no longer getting the orders. The left side of my neck is rock solid, and it's dammaged for life. I just thought of it cos it's hurting a little now.
17. i use to move my head around a lot when i was excited/nervous; I don't think i do it so much now.
18. The day that Vision Australia (formally RVIB) leave their Burwood campus will be undoubtedly, one of the saddest days of my life. No, I haven't been there fulltime in 20 years, (man that's scarey), but it was certainly my second home when I was there, and I have so so so so many good memories of being there.
19. leading on from that, it's also awful that they are getting rid of St. Kilda Road. again, so many memories for so many blind people who use to live there fulltime.
20. again leading on from them a little, I do hate change.
21. Since high school, i have been able to make friends so much easier! I was so pleased when I very easily put this into practice at TAFE in 04 to such a great extent.
22. The one thing that I am most fearful of is death; not because I don't believe in Heaven cos by gosh I do, but just the unknown scares me; how long, being all alone where it's cold and dark and in all weather conditions; may sound silly, but that's what I think? I hate to think I'd be all alone.
23. I use to suffer from a lot of anxiety attacks, which fortunately have mostly disappeared since i got Heartly. It all started one night when I was about ten, listening to 60 minutes with my family. One of the stories was about this little girl Holly, who was suffering from aids. That night, I had a dream and when I woke, I couldn't stop crying, shaking and feeling nautious. I ended up staying home from school the next day. I went to bed that night, but was soon on the couch with Mum, watching tV. That started a whole string of attacks lasting to when i got Heartly. they did lessen as I got older however.
24. This is probably the same for most people, but another one of the saddest days of my life will be when i retire Heartly. I am so use to her being an extended part of me. And I just wish til the cows come home, that she can live forever. -- I know it will be worse when her time is up completely. i know I'll never get over her.
25. I believe i'm done, and surprisingly, it wasn't as hard as I would have thought, to run off the past ten things; they just came to me;
I tag all on my LJ and facebook (except for those who have already done this) who are up for the challenge.
woh, that took a while and now I'm off.
til next time, RdFreak
For the first time, I had the aircon on for half the night and it did work in here I think. this is because, as I stated last night, it only got down to 29; possibly didn't even get down there!
So it's already in the 30's, and I have a mum who offered to drive me into work today, so for that, i am extremely greatful! -- I will do something i haven't done before and leave my aircon on all day here as well.
I woke to a knock from RB's N70 phone that he gave me so I can put American english eloquence on there as he hates the british English one as much as I do. His alarm is not set, so no idea why it kept on knocking at me. there were no calls, so who knows!
What else did I have to say in here? nothing I guess; of consequence at the moment anyway. But there is this crazy meme going around on facebook called "25 random things", and I have been tagged; probably several times by now, but here goes with mine; assuming I can actually think of 25 random things. some of my friends are really so random, it's amazing!
1. There is this exercise thing I do with my mouth, which, when i was little, was considered one of those typical baby noises, but I still do it now as it's stimulating. can't explain how it goes or how it makes my jaw feel, but it's something that makes me complete.
2. I haven't had any of those heck annoying buzzy insects in this house for a number of years now, because I never leave doors open long enough even for them to attempt to get in; that's because I hate them with an unusually passionate passion.
3. My close friends know this, but most don't, but I suffer from Emetophobia. -- I'm actually not as bad these days as I was when I was younger. -- I use to lay there, wondering if death would be preferable to vomitting. -- When I was feeling sick and/or had a stomach bug, I would absolutely pray so hard that I wouldn't throw up. -- Likewise but not as severe, I just couldn't be around others who were, or had a chance, of being sick.
4. relating to the above, I was staying with a then-friend on the goldCoast in 03 and her kids all had the stomach flu. I would literally wash my hands after every single thing I touched in friends apartment; i was that frightened of getting it. fortunately I never did get it!
5. also relating to the above, I haven't had two minute noodles since before I threw up last time, about thirteen years ago. I was staying at J's place and was sick. she had them that morning, and the smell put me off for life!
6. (will try and get away from that now, but needless to say, I am glad i'm not alone in suffering that; even a couple of my closest friends keep me company here.
7. damn, I've got 17 things to go and I can't think of anything.! :(
8. I only got stung by a bee once when I was about 8, playing under a friends sprinkler, (I am wondering, as a sidenote, if these people on my facebook will remember this? :)
9. I have still got heaps of tootseyrolls left from my trip to America in July 05.
10. To those who don't know, i *hate hate hate being single and lonely and that's been apart of me throughout my 20's. I do fear I will be single for the rest of my life. (as it happens, I have a kindered spirit in my life, but am not sure what will happen as the situation is a complicated one which for now, stays in my locked entries; in an ideal world, we would be together now.
11. If I don't find a partner, I am thinking of doing the single-parent thing; my life would be so incomplete without children and that's the way I've felt since I was little.
12. I just got an email. ;)
13. They were all spam. 95% of my email is spam and it has been that way for about six years now!
14. I remember one time when I was probably about 7 or 8, I asked for a drink of water, and sis handed me one with a bit of soap in it; still don't know if it was done on purpose or not.
15. Everyone seems to hate the sound of their own voice, and I was no exception, but since i like recording so much, I made myself get use to mine.
16. for those who don't know, I walk around a lot with my head tilted to one side. apparently this has been the case since I was about five. The family theory is that, because I can see out of the corner of my right eye, maybe i was doing this at aged five, and it became a habbit. Throughout my childhood and teenage years, I was constantly told to ""put my head up straight" but it was always an effort; it still is i believe though I am no longer getting the orders. The left side of my neck is rock solid, and it's dammaged for life. I just thought of it cos it's hurting a little now.
17. i use to move my head around a lot when i was excited/nervous; I don't think i do it so much now.
18. The day that Vision Australia (formally RVIB) leave their Burwood campus will be undoubtedly, one of the saddest days of my life. No, I haven't been there fulltime in 20 years, (man that's scarey), but it was certainly my second home when I was there, and I have so so so so many good memories of being there.
19. leading on from that, it's also awful that they are getting rid of St. Kilda Road. again, so many memories for so many blind people who use to live there fulltime.
20. again leading on from them a little, I do hate change.
21. Since high school, i have been able to make friends so much easier! I was so pleased when I very easily put this into practice at TAFE in 04 to such a great extent.
22. The one thing that I am most fearful of is death; not because I don't believe in Heaven cos by gosh I do, but just the unknown scares me; how long, being all alone where it's cold and dark and in all weather conditions; may sound silly, but that's what I think? I hate to think I'd be all alone.
23. I use to suffer from a lot of anxiety attacks, which fortunately have mostly disappeared since i got Heartly. It all started one night when I was about ten, listening to 60 minutes with my family. One of the stories was about this little girl Holly, who was suffering from aids. That night, I had a dream and when I woke, I couldn't stop crying, shaking and feeling nautious. I ended up staying home from school the next day. I went to bed that night, but was soon on the couch with Mum, watching tV. That started a whole string of attacks lasting to when i got Heartly. they did lessen as I got older however.
24. This is probably the same for most people, but another one of the saddest days of my life will be when i retire Heartly. I am so use to her being an extended part of me. And I just wish til the cows come home, that she can live forever. -- I know it will be worse when her time is up completely. i know I'll never get over her.
25. I believe i'm done, and surprisingly, it wasn't as hard as I would have thought, to run off the past ten things; they just came to me;
I tag all on my LJ and facebook (except for those who have already done this) who are up for the challenge.
woh, that took a while and now I'm off.
til next time, RdFreak
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Now I must think of 25 random things.
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glad you liked my selection! :) *hugs*