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OK now it's time to gripe! gripe gripe gripe! I got on the Net bright and early as I could and stuff, and, i just downloaded my email and .. out of about fifteen since I obviously checked last night, only two of them were real emails! the rest were spam! how dodgy! including a yahoogroups message which, someone had obviously used my email address to subscribe to a yahoogroup; how nice of them to do that one?! Don't tell me that that's what spam is starting to turn intoo?! Spam is evil! internet crime big time! *grrrr*
OK on another note, I had a dream - it was a dream about an LJ friend; none other than![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
healoneismyrock
OK well I was obviously in Canada though I kinda didn't know that in my dream. anyway I went to her house and she didn't realize this. I was aiming to surprise her by showing up. anyway I was hanging with all her other siblings - well I remember being in a pool/spa kinda thing with a 14-year old girl and we were just chattin and stuff, and I was wondering how I was going to surprise her. First I didn't even know where she was. and as I didn't have my bathers and I was in my clothes, I was panicking in case she thought rude of me to be surprising her with my dripping-wet clothes. (yeah it was very strange) and her other siblings kept introing themselves to me but not her!
Anyway i eventually got out and mannaged to get myself dry while talking to different people.
I never did meet poor![[profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
healoneismyrock which I was kinda mad about as I woke up! :( anyway my dream scene changed (as they do in dreams) to me being in a place I have no idea, and I was given a blanket and told that wrapped up inside was a baby bird. So I unwrapped it and said to her siblings (that were still with me) I have a baby bird here, and there was nothing there just a blanket!
heh. my dreams are never, ever logical! they never make sense; they jump all over the place! and i was sad that my dream never allowed me to meet my LJ buddy and msn friend. (not that I've been sociable on there lately; sorry!
anyway that's about all. Nothing much happened since I last wrote since it was only last night. But I have been reading a lot ofrickybuchanan's LJ and her journal on her personal web site and am hoping she is OK as I haven't had a reply from my comment or had her add me back but it's taught me soo much and I really admire how she copes! And my depression can be sooo trivial. So yeah have been spending a lot of time there and like I say, really really hope she's OK.
I am in a strange mood - a bit dazed still, yet I got up anyway! I am about to go have breakfast.
Mum called me last night while I was on line. She had said that she just called me to say hi and stuff. I wondered if she felt guilty cos of yesterday when she was ignoring me a little. It hurt me. It hurts me how she treats me sometimes. And I hate it that she's always soo nice to me when it's just us two - like if I'm there and dad's in sydney and a is somewhere else and/or when she is driving me to docs appointment or Psychologists'. It really hurts me, and especially that she denies that! *grrrr* Or maybe it was just that, when we were talking about if she regrets having kids I againslipped in my truth of how I wish I had never been born. It's starting to sink in as oppose to everyone thinking i'm talking rubbish!
Oh well, obviously I am here for a reason or two but haven't noticed them yet. God will show me in his own good time (now that quote reminds me of the Sound of Music - what the reverent Mother told Maria!)
OK off to have breakfast.
Til Next Time, RdFreak
OK on another note, I had a dream - it was a dream about an LJ friend; none other than
healoneismyrockOK well I was obviously in Canada though I kinda didn't know that in my dream. anyway I went to her house and she didn't realize this. I was aiming to surprise her by showing up. anyway I was hanging with all her other siblings - well I remember being in a pool/spa kinda thing with a 14-year old girl and we were just chattin and stuff, and I was wondering how I was going to surprise her. First I didn't even know where she was. and as I didn't have my bathers and I was in my clothes, I was panicking in case she thought rude of me to be surprising her with my dripping-wet clothes. (yeah it was very strange) and her other siblings kept introing themselves to me but not her!
Anyway i eventually got out and mannaged to get myself dry while talking to different people.
I never did meet poor
healoneismyrock which I was kinda mad about as I woke up! :( anyway my dream scene changed (as they do in dreams) to me being in a place I have no idea, and I was given a blanket and told that wrapped up inside was a baby bird. So I unwrapped it and said to her siblings (that were still with me) I have a baby bird here, and there was nothing there just a blanket!heh. my dreams are never, ever logical! they never make sense; they jump all over the place! and i was sad that my dream never allowed me to meet my LJ buddy and msn friend. (not that I've been sociable on there lately; sorry!
anyway that's about all. Nothing much happened since I last wrote since it was only last night. But I have been reading a lot of
rickybuchanan's LJ and her journal on her personal web site and am hoping she is OK as I haven't had a reply from my comment or had her add me back but it's taught me soo much and I really admire how she copes! And my depression can be sooo trivial. So yeah have been spending a lot of time there and like I say, really really hope she's OK.I am in a strange mood - a bit dazed still, yet I got up anyway! I am about to go have breakfast.
Mum called me last night while I was on line. She had said that she just called me to say hi and stuff. I wondered if she felt guilty cos of yesterday when she was ignoring me a little. It hurt me. It hurts me how she treats me sometimes. And I hate it that she's always soo nice to me when it's just us two - like if I'm there and dad's in sydney and a is somewhere else and/or when she is driving me to docs appointment or Psychologists'. It really hurts me, and especially that she denies that! *grrrr* Or maybe it was just that, when we were talking about if she regrets having kids I againslipped in my truth of how I wish I had never been born. It's starting to sink in as oppose to everyone thinking i'm talking rubbish!
Oh well, obviously I am here for a reason or two but haven't noticed them yet. God will show me in his own good time (now that quote reminds me of the Sound of Music - what the reverent Mother told Maria!)
OK off to have breakfast.
Til Next Time, RdFreak
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*hugs* Will get on msn and chat soon. Just haven't felt like it because of Sam. it all reminds me of him so that's why I've been avoiding it all pretty much.
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