rdfreak | my first friends cut

OK I have been in hysterical tears all night. Sometimes people think they are doing the right thing, but it is far from it!
I give you my journal because I benefit better from knowing others are reading it. but when I don't ask you for comments, you don't comment - and that was especially evident in my latest friends only post. There was a reason I didn't include the ability for anyone to comment! I was just venting in my journal!
It's no good having people on my friends page who do the wrong thing by me, so therefore, I have done my first LJ friends cut.
I had actually thought about doing this a while ago but dismissed it! Now I have cut the trouble maker in question - tquestionable because this person decided to post anonymously, I can't put the blame on one person entirely but .. there are two people that I know for a fact speak and therefore, created this drama. So, I cut them off. However, if either of the two that didn't leave that anonymous comment in my previous entry want to get back on my friends list, i'm sorry but you will have to try and prove to me that you haven't, and will not cause trouble in the future!
This is where I hate the blind community sometimes!
And the other two people I cut from my LJ are my real life friends. I decided I can no longer bare the thought of them reading every bit of my life and they don't even blog at all! enough is enough!
If anyone else is thinking of creating another drama to add to my already long list of them, you will go off with a bang too!
To those of you online friends who are always there for me, saying encouraging words to me, i truly can't thank you enough! Hopefully you know who you are!

I didn't want to ever have to do this in my LJ, but why should I let people read my personal journal if they are going to carry it over to the person - in some way?!
*sigh* I feel a little better now, and I am seriously thinking of calling tomorrow and sorting it all out! Was thinking about it for a few days but after tonight .. still, I think whatever it needs to be done!
Til next time, RdFreak

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It's crap when you have to add so much security to your LJ.

People are rubbish.

I love you Rachel!

I'm sorry about what happened here... it's not good to hear you've been in tears all night *hugs* :(

Have you ever sent me you mailing address? Please do if you get a chance... thanks!

I didnt' say anythign to him! I just asked him if he'd ever played it! I never said, did Rachel buy it for you? He is none the wiser unless you tell him. Doesn't that tell you anything? Can't you see why I did it? Coz reading your journal, I saw a side of him that I'm not sure I want to know. That is all I said to him, I sware!!! If you won't talk to me, how can you know why I did it! You could at least answer me...

We have more in commun than you know. I don't want to see you get hurt and you're clearly already hurting. Why would anyone want to watch someone that they already care about, after talking to for such a short time, hurting the way you are!

Why are you posting anonymously?

right, i'm not posting anonimously now! I posted anonimously because Rachel knows who I am and for reasons that I need to discuss with her. For goodness sake, do you really think that if I had something to gain by this, that I wouldnt' have gained it by now/ Does the fact that I blocked and deleted the person in question tell you nothing? I love Rachel already and she does not deserve to be treated like this! He's scum!!! And that's coming from someone who thought they may have had feelings for him too! So if that tells you nothing, then I just give up

*hugs*.

I'm sorry I've been so distant lately, I know I've been a really bad friend. Sorry. I've just been too preoccupied and I know thats really terrible.

(and I know this entry wasn't about me or anything, it just made me think of that and I've been meaning to tell you that for a while now)

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