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[rdfreak]

Dear MJ,
As I go take Heartly out and prepare for bed, I bid you goodnight. I bid you a farewell from this world as we know it, as you did know it. as I still only know it.
The news I recieved after getting home from the info session for my hopeful potential future, struck me down in ways that I haven't even been able to describe to myself let alone anyone else. I guess a part of me could admit I didn't realize how close I felt to you til I had heard you left us. I guess that can be said for most people; you never quite know what you have until it's gone. I did know what I had. But I am finding it hard to comprehend I will never see you again in this world (again as we here know it). I was just talking to you Monday night! I'm so glad I did! Without going into too many details of memories here, I just wanted to say thank you for being such a big part of my life for so long! 18 years I think it's been! 18 happy years of knowing you! you were sooo bubbly and always ready to have a laugh! I know we had spoken only recently of our one fight we ever had, where we gave each other the "silent treatment" for about two or three months. Thank god we got over that! and how could I possibly forget that time at Sopheas with the ice? man that was fuuuuuny! :)
I love you! You will be missed by sooo many! You honestly touched sooo many lives; you had sooo many friends!
Bye.
Rachie -- sickness (our word derrived from CB :)