rdfreak

I've just taken the dogs out and fed them.
Parents are coming later on their way to the airport so dad can say his final goodbye until he gets back in december. :(
As soon as I have my breakfast, I'm going to start chopping the vegies; I am going to cook today.
I've also started adding to my Neighbours collection with the episodes from October 2009 to the latest.
Last night I dreamed about RVIB Burwood; prob cos we were talking about it last evening! I was just walking along the big pool (which no longer exists as with the entire rest of the building. :(
Anyway, I woke up from one of my many sleeps last night, and was regretting, as one of the only things I've regretted a few times lately, going to work at the ANZ. I had worked so hard to get into primary teaching at deakin, even having to apply for an extra time as I stuffed up my Vtac offer which I'd successfully got intoo. -- As previously mentioned, most of my time at ANZ was miserable anyway because of certain people .. ahem .. so if I didn't defer my course and then later on, withdrawing from it completely to stay with ANZ, I'd probably be almost finished my degree now, (not sure how long primary teaching went for). Despite what everyone said at the time, I certainly would of had a much better chance of finding work afterwards than the situation I'm currently in; Thanks Lorraine. :(
I know I was over study, but since it's something I wanted to do, I probably would have some how done myself very proud; of course teaching rounds would have thrilled me.
Of course, I wouldn't have as much overseas experience under my belt, but that really doesn't matter; I still would have been twice on my own anyway.
Now, the best and closest possible way of working with kids is if I can become a receptionist at a school, (something I will be looking intoo).
We can't turn back time, but I just wish that I stayed at deakin. Of course, the only downfall of that is, I wouldn't have met RB; at least, not had the close friendship with him i did, (we've drifted a bit now).
So yeh, not much I can do, I know; *sigh* but at least I wouldn't be stuck in this rut now.
Til Next Time, RdFreak

I really don't want to go back to school next Monday! I can say that I have really enjoyed me damn self this week. at least I have enjoyed being lazy; getting up, switching on the puter, getting online and downloading my email while getting ready; watching Judge Judy, having made my breakfast (now I'm on to wheatbix still with a few nutral grains to make that horrid taste of the littles milk go away). then after that I come back here to the puter, either go on the Zone, check through and reply to emails, or maybe go directly to livejournal to read me friends page - and man that is growing of late! Gone are the dayd mostly where I do random Journal surfs though I still enjoy doing that occasionally. Face it, I have met soo many wonderful people through doing that - horray for Livejournal! it is the best! ever! it's changed my life/world to an extent!
I have also met wonderful people through the zone. as I pointed out earlier, some of whom I'm sure will be long-term friends! I love everyone at the moment! I know I go through strange-arse moods!
Great great human life forms can exist on this plannet! Lol! ya just got to know where to look!
I have discovered a new accessable games site -- vipgameszone.com. I was sooo impressed with what I have been hearing that I wrote them a note.
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Needless to say I have quite a few game sites to add to my list on my web page. in fact, I think I am gunna dedicate a whole page to the games, cos there's getting to be soo much out there! Yeah for the blindy programmers! it's all so fantastic!
Man I haven't even had my zoloft yet for the day. what is wrong with me?
I was doing some singing exercises before, not that I am taking singing lessons right now, but I reckon I am gunna take R up on it when he gets back from music camp. Also try and better me braille music skills so I can start to muck around with the piano again. afterall, I am getting our piano. may as well make the best use of it! who knows; might even be good enough to enter the land of the mystirious Braille Music Camp one of these years heh! I couldn't wait to get home when I was last there in 95 but now it's different. i'm not as shy! but then again, I don't and never will get so into that snobby world of music that some of them sorta get like there! And H is the worse out of em all - only associating with those who are good musos - makes me sick! and the way she and a few others talk about braille music - it's like only "goody goodies" can join their clan, and oh my gosh it's something so wonderful and clever! and no-body else can be quite as clever as them! it's a special thing that only a few have! oooh!
OK I will quit now! Please, what is up with me?! Lol um, as true as that is, I just felt i had to stop myself from going crazy! haha!
My headache is gone! Nurifen does wonders - maybe that's what's happened to me. it's had some strange affect on not only my physical pain but my mental state!
So yeah last night and this morning it was the groviness of the vip-games. Last night Dad brought pizza from Michael angelos for tea. Oh I got me hearing back yesterday too wohooo! And TPG went down. i was on the net yesterday afo and it all of a sudden wouldn't let me talk on msn or go to any web site or check mail. so me thinks there's no point in being on line. so I disconnected then I couldn't connect again! but luckily I didn't panic too much as I knew it was their end! So poor little me was off the net for a while! :( oh no! after tea I tried logging on again and mannaged but nothing was working so I got off and about 9 it seemed to work again so yeah! Love tpg though. hardly ever has probs.
Heartly went back with dad last night, so i don't have to worry about her being bored. Tonight I'll take her back after my appointment. As tomorrow now I am going to visit Ricky Ricky! Lol!
Then I'll be sad as it will be the last day of my holidays! I sooooo soo don't wanna go back! even though I didn't do much, the routine I described earlier has been great and this week, has done me wonders! I also feel like I want the troop to stay at music camp Lol! I'm sure they'd love it too, but reality is ... they have to come back! Lol! doh and double doh! :( Lol haha but like the reverent mother from "Sound of music" says: "I can't let camp solve all my problems; I've got to face them" so that I will do and it will work out just fine! you wait and see! ;) haha
Heard from J a few times on SMS and I made a point of saying to her "shout out to everyone I know, and i do mena *everyone I know" haha! then I said "luv to everyone who luvs me" haha! I know, I am crazy! but what can ya do?!
Things will work out! they will!
I was going to write up "my book of friendship rules" but I am feeling too bouncy to do that so I will save it for a time when I'm feeling a little more bitchy Lol!
ha he hi ho hu I do I have to feel blue.
why can't everyone luv me, like I luv them - and stuff and that - and that didn't rhyme one little tiny bit!
.. ahem .. me go and have breakfast now!
I hate jaws! it doesn't backspace and announce letters unless i do it slowly. Must be a setting I can ajust somewhere but who knows where?!
Til Next Time, RdFreak

Well a lot to update on but guess I just haven't felt like writing in here sooner. hmmm, maybe working from when I last wrote to now could be a good thing! Well, tuesday was the lovliest of all lovely Public life essay. Not sure how I did. Guess I should be finding out really. Um, well before that was worse as S teacher decided our debate again was crapedy crap and he pulled it all apart and told us to basically fix everything. So, there went our Wednesday off, but most of us (I hope) settled on the fact that it was the final week! anyway so we were at TAFE all day Wednesday working! I was sooo zonked from having not slept much the night before. S (wrote his whole name then woops :) made it pretty clear he wondered why I was talking and he wanted T too instead - well that's how it seemed! I was soo mad! In fact, we were all quite mad and it just felt better to be going home that wednesday night with the debate the following day, and after all this, who gives a flying (bleep bleep) what marks we got. I felt awful though, cos I felt I didn't contribute enough. But our group got a high distinction - highest in the class. so go them! Oh, speaking of high distinctions, I did find out tuesday that that's what I got for stories cultures - 83! :( I actually had expected a high distinction, but .. can't have it all I guess!
Anyway Thursday I was just really upset during class, and I tried to contribute in the counter arguments during our debate, but it seemed no-one was hearing me. so after class I just left, feeling even worse because we'd gotten those essays back and don't think I did all that well! I am just not cut out for writing all that crap - the way he expects us too. Then friday everyone went to the Pub but I just stayed home. Haven't heard from anyone from then since, but then I am hardly on msn where we see each other the majority of the time! hmm don't know how I feel about all that now! I am just not gunna worry about any of that annoyance til next term. Might talk to s about my essay and about how he upset me quite a lot and ask him what his deal was with me?! *sigh* I I went to Psychologist that night.
Then friday .. um .. yeah Nan came over to give me a hand as I had been so stressed - what's new? Then I worked on getting a counter for my site, and I put it on the front page.
Yesterday was OK. spent the whole day on the Net - as was today! This morning I ended up putting the counter on all my web pages, and, and and, I revamped my whole web site since it was in bad bad need of updating! Then Dad came to pick Heartly up. She got a bath! Then tomorrow I'm home again - just enjoying relaxind and stuff, and Tuesday I'll be visitting rickybushanan so that will be cool! Lol it will be an interesting venture finding it meself! Lol! I haven't gone to an unfamiliar terrortry much but when i have it's always been extremely rewarding when I've actually made it there - with only verbal directions of course! yeah! I'm actually looking forward to seeing how that goes. It's on the Sandy line so it's only really from the station that I'm following directions!
Well that's about all. Guess that wasn't as bad as all that. Have just been an emotional roller-coaster this week. Getting there with it all?! Holidays good be extremely good, or extremely bad!
I did have the sidescroller level music of Pipe2 going around and around in my head - now it's the bonus round music Lol! i still haven't won the thing yet, but it sure is addicting!
I've been hanging out in the zone lately and meeting a lot of great people - a few of which will probably become great buddies - if not more than a few! Lol! And I find that I have so much support from everyone. It really makes me smile how much ppl care and want to try and help!
OK me freezing, so will go turn my heater on. It hasn't been on all day actually; how cool is that?!
Oh, and this morning, dad brought over their water filter that they never used, so now it's mine and it's great! My water, for some reason doesn't seem as nice as theirs, but now I seem right! It had to go up on top of the microwave, I've got so little room for everything in that kitchen - one thing I hate!
Dad is dropping Heartly back later and he also asked if I'd like him to bring me around some of the famous Roast that apparently Mum's cooking, so of course that goes down well! Guess I could have gone over there tonight if I'd known sooner, just to get out of the house! My parents though freak out if they know I have to use my cane! I won't admit that I don't feel safer with Heartly!
OK enough of the chatter and let's get some heat into this joint!
Oh man, I will never know why/how Paul has lasted this long! But I hope the intruders got stuck into him Lol! didn't watch much of the intruders show, so don't really know them. Guess I may meet them tonight.
Til Next Time, RdFreak

Nan left this morning after staying over and giving me a hand with housework and all. Parents came over yesterday and Dad explained to me all about Aus politics again and ... think I actually took it in this time! "the upper house, the lower house - senate" oh forget what the upperhouse is called :( how the voting all works, yeahness! I actually know where everything fits now! It's just retaining it to memory! Then I got to learn about the US presidency! :( oh well!
Well not done a lot apart from that. It's been absolutely freezing, and I'm still avoiding MSN but am trying to still deal with it all.
Tomorrow is public holiday and I will do work then. i planned to break away today :) Lol
Oh and it is really time to go tonight Paul! If anyone else goes I will be sooo sooo annoyed! I didn't even want Krystal to go and am still upset about that and is half the reason I don't watch it any more :) Lol
( Another quiz :) )
So I am contemplating purchasing another payd account, but then I think - well it's pointless. I can create poles which is nice and all :) and the only other thing I have access to is the phone posts but I'd still need to call internationally so not much point. Though I was told by the support ppl when I wrote to them that they are planning to extend to numbers outside the US so if they ever get one here, maybe I'll consider! Still I love this site still and I have no probs with showing my greatfulness!
Oh, also I gotta write to Justin from BSC games and see if he will kindly send me the three registration codes for Troopanum, Pipe and Hunter cos stupid me didn't save them. And I do miss playing My BSC Games!
OK, another meme (I got from [Bad username or site: nowhereisfree) @ livejournal.com]
( Ten things I hate or love about you! )
Til Next Time, RdFreak

hmmmmm well I have been sleeping so well lately but .. it still appears that sometimes I just wake up for whatever reason and get bored of laying there. Anyway I did go to bed at 9 last night, so just hope I'm not doing another round of stuffing up sleeping patterns, cos yeah lately sleep has been good to me, and at the proper times too!
But I do think it got me in a bit of strife yesterday. We were working with our debate team in the morning, and I just got extremely frustrated. It just seemed that every time I tried to contribute, no-one was listening to me and/or they were contradicting me. :( I dunno if it was just me or what. But like I was joking to L that she was being "the typical bossy mother" but she kinda was, and that just got to me. I just felt like I wasn't being heard. and I felt bad cos after a while I just thought "ge it'd be better if I didn't speak" so I didn't and it was when they were working out my part! anyway *sigh* they are friends who I usually love, so .. maybe it was just my bad-hair-day or something! Anyway, I will compensate by working out another speakers piece. This is my first real debate so-to-speak cos previous ones haven't been proper ones - just subject understanding kinda-sorta. (sorry love ya TE, K, L J and J but eye contact really *grrrrrrr* me sometimes cos you can use it to talk/get each others attention and I just can't!) anyway, it's all good! this morning we will meet again - hopefully I don't fall asleep!
Yesterday I got home and I watched Neighbours and my silly VCR only just got the start - even missed out on the first few seconds of the previews! *getting worried about that one* oh well! then I finished the final touches to my L2L essay and emailed that to him! gosh hope it's right! stupid me forgot to read the criteria and all after all that! When will I learn??!! *sigh* and I decided to do my infotech assignment this afo when I get home, then I will have finished my more outstanding pieces and I only have what's due in the final week to go! yeah only two more weeks! much excitment is to be had! :)
Anyway I then went on the zone which I had just started revissiting after about six or seven months of staying away and decided to follow canadian_diva's advice and play the anagrams! And she is right; very addictive! and I think it's especially made fun when other ppl come on and we can kinda chatter a little. It's quite cool actually! Man! I am stumped. I only got 73 words out of "orchestra" out of a possible 407.
( view my results so far! )
And yeah me agrees with CD. those apparent "anagram generators" ppl find on the net is just not fair! I don't like cheats either! I wanted to be one of the leaders for the day but guess if I go there now and start on today's word, i may, just may have it later tonight, who knows?!
man ... it is sooo time to go Paul! What is up with his damn attitude to Merlyn?! No wonder he has two strikes; it upsets him all sooo much! :( Merlyn has to stay. In fact he is one of my predictions for winning.
OK i go and see if today's word is up yet. I am not quite sure as yet how they'd handle "the word of the day" when all these different time zones would come into play. Oh well, will find out I guess!
Hmm wonder how long I'll stay awake this session? Lol
Til Next Time, RdFreak

Just got back from Psychologists and my email has just downloaded! two things happening in the one sentence, yeah?!
Well didn't go to stories cultures this morning as predicted, but hardly anyone else did either. I will start my last assessment task there when I have my essay out the way and my infotech assignment. So tomorrow I'll be a good girl and work on finishing my essay, together with those stupid annitated bibliographies!
And I just realized, speaking of tomorrow I should have called A (volunteer reader) before I connected! ah me and me damn internet! Well I might SMS her instead. I got some stuff to get scanned!
Well not much else I wish to blabber about now. I woke up this morning in rather a cheerful mood but then ... ... yeah just back to the old ways, and what made it even better was that Neighbours wasn't on today! I mean the old series. I keep forgetting it's not on a Tuesday. So much for sleeping in and staying put here!
( OK another fun test )
OK I go.
Til Next Time, RdFreak

So I am starting to learn a lot about myself that I didn't really know -- as of last night in my appointment. It's kinda sad. I'm trying to change but, really, I am not clear on how easy that will be! Oh well ... sh-- happens!
I had a little insomnia last night so I got up and actually got on here for ... literally not very long at all. Then .. I went back to bed, ha! Then I dozed off nicely but I had, not surprisingly a few dreams. One though was about my old buddy NB1! heh, she never new I nicknamed her that but ... (if you happen to be reading this, please give me a tingle on the electric telephone! :) heh. I often wonder what she's up to and .. well .. we were such close friends in secondary school, but I know she started resenting me in year twelve because of my clinginess. :( I've tried to reply to her emails yet I don't hear from her any more! man i think the last time we hung out was in 99 or 2000 or something. I am guessing, hoping (if not sooner) that we will catch up at our ten-year reunion. and that's in four years - scary stuff! tmeans I'm gettin an old fart! But then again, I could make meself feel better by saying that I just finished my VCE last year, which is damn true! :) heh.
Anyway last night wasn't the nicest dream I could of had about young Nat. She got mad at me, like really mad, because we were going to go to this event together (I full on can't remember what it was now)
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So there ya go. Much weirdness!
I looooooove Win XP. Best thing I have done in a while! :) heh.
Dad is coming tonight for tea.
And later on, I got to read a small chapter on a democracy and answer some questions - the handout from friday which A kindly scanned for me.
Til Next time, RdFreak

mmmmmmmm rocks does the food, but coffee is evil!
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So I went out with Mum, Dad and A to the Blackburn hotel. We never have gone out much at all as a family to restaurants; mainly purely for special occasions so we enjoyed this. Dad had bought a book of restaurant coopons, (it would appear I've never had to write that word in my entire life, so excuse spelling if it's incorrect. I hate spelling things wrong! I guess I am a perfectionest after all!)
Anyway they all came back here after that and we bought some icecreams and stayed a while then they left.
Earlier R came to check out my puter. No luck with trippletalk but he did install some free virus and spy-wear protection and after doing a scan and finding no dilemmas I feel like new. Puter all nice and clean and fast! well most of the time. I am at a loss to know why it lags on the net though?! *grrr*sometimes!
Yeahness no schoolness for me tomorrow, but some hardcore essay research then off to Nan's for padietry appointment in the afo then will stay over and go from there to school friday.
The End!
I am now off to bed. I am looking forward to not shivering like a leaf as I have my loveliest of all lovely electrick blanket on, so I will just melt into warmness! ha! My hands are soooooooo freezing; as always!
Til Next Time, RdFreak

yeahness! Now have a brand new puter! well it seems like it's new anyway. It's still my old puter with XP pro on there now and a new case (a lot bigger than my other one so I can upgrade quite easily when it does come time) and of course, a brand new power supply which is way bigger! and Man it's faster! Dad just brought it back today and I've just been reinstalling my programs and I got my 11 gig of music off my other drive, though I still have access to my other drive! No crashes, wohooo!
This morning I went to stories cultures and we watched a bit of west Side Story, but I didn't stay for all of it. I was feeling achy all over, headachy and even a little nausiated! I just felt sooo crap for some reason so after our break I spoke to O and she ordered me to go home and go to bed! Lol! She's sooo awesome! because she told me to go! Lol nah! but she's really cool! She said that I'd looked pale. I was asking her about an extension for my review and she had no prob!
So miandered home by train and I ended up sleeping a little after I watched my Neighbours (which my kind VCR kindly recorded for me :) My back is still aching. It's weird cos yesterday it was aching on the low left, and now it's top right. I am just hoping I'm not getting the flu as quite a few ppl in my class have unfortunately had it! But like I said to J today I actually more so think it's cos I've been so mentally rundown, my body is starting to find it hard to cope. But oh well!
I still have me argumentative essay to start, my democracy one (though I think we need further instruction on that) my outstanding MY PLACE review and my group story for Stories cultures - the final assessment. Usually I'd be stressing major but I have got Wednesday to work and Thursday cos I will show S Friday what I'd done. I have been working out contentions and premmices in my head! *grin* i really think I am finally getting the hand of this essa-writing stuff. It took me a while. that's probably why I did sooo poorly on the SACs (and CATS before hand)
Oh well, me going to see what this norten download is doing.
Til Next Time, RdFreak

OK so that subject has two purposes and they're both quite amuzing to say the least. This morning in L2L we were looking at sample argumentative essays and he, funnily enough shows us an HD essay, a creddit, a pass and a fail! aaaah! so sad, and he made us mark them! I never failed one. I gave an HD, a creddit and a pass! But it was soo funny, T who was next to me decided to fail one and as she announced it to the class, I whispered to her "T you're sooo harsh! and she's like "I'm not harsh!" in this really cute little whiny kinda voice! But it just cracked me up as she was in the middle of her explanation as to why then she came out with that! hahaha! anyway, back to the story, when S had given everyone a copy of an HD essay, he told us not to write on them as he'd keep the photocopies for the other class. Then someone, forgot who it was; think it was d said "there's crap all over this though!" so he grabbed it off her and said "WTF?!" (except didn't use the acrinim but literally said it! it did take us all by surprise! Lol anyway ..
In the afo we'd just got to Public Life and I turned my braille note on, and I'm not kidding, i read a brief message on the display and then it disappeared "how are you?" in grade two braille and all! So I kinda let out a little shreak and T (who was next to me again) asked me what was wrong.
R: Well, Um, something kinda strange just happened. I got a message on my braille display that read "how are you?" then it disappeared and brought me to the Main menu.
T: Really?? ... weird.
R: Um, yeah, ya could say that. It reminds me, have you read harry Potter?"
T: yeah. It does, doesn't it?
R? When Lord Vuldimort/Tom Riddle writes back to harry!
T: Yeah (laughs*
R: (typing and reading at the same time) Is T--- a good person to hang out with?
I pretended my braille note said something which I recited "no, she's evil!"
T laughed along with me!
man I still can't work that out though! it's kinda weird! .. .. ..
Yeah then we just watched a vidio on .. um ... on ... um ... the Greek revolution. Heh it's on my braille note (if tom Riddle hasn't taken it over! :) Lol
Then I went back to parents for tea. Nan came. we met at Mitcham station actually and caught the bus and walked back together.
Tomorrow parents pick us up and we're off to Rhy.
Heartly just sighed on her bed, and so she should. I swear she was a bit of a naughty puppy today! *grrrrr* she's just like a naughty child sometimes! They're all like that though, but most of the time she is a little angel! and it's sooo easy to forget she's a dog!
Well i am off to bed. I am quite tired!
Til Next Time, RdFreak