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Well yesterday I know I was gloomy.
Those feelings have been with me for some time but it's the way I express myself which is the difference.
I am generally use to how I feel and bottling up until I need too.
School is still an uncertainty for me, but I have friends (who showed me support in this LJ) so I thank everyone for that!
The sooner I go to the docs to start the pill, the better it will be I think. Because my moods are so up and down literally from minute to minute.
I think even with my general way of feeling I usually can control the level of happiness I feel. So I think I will try making an appointment next week for that.
Well thursday when I didn't write here I was meant to go into RVIB to talk about my tertiary options next year but I thought I should do with another day's rest so I ended up having the appointment with "tertiary consultant" over the phone. That works out so much better anyway! we can get more done! Basically thanks to her I have my VTAC preferences so will enter them into infonet in a couple weeks thanks to B who has agreed to help me do that again.
I haven't completely sorted them out but I think I set myself up better this time round as I have a few TAFE options for backup plans.
Oh it's sooo competative now! the cut off scores to get into courses are just unbelievably high!
So that was a good job well done, and I was actually very happy when I got off the phone!
That morning Dad helped me to confirm my flights for Sydney. I couldn't use any frequent flyer points. well, technically I could, but it would have meant that I had to change at Canberra to an international flight and get into the international terminal in sydney and then go through customs as if I was an international chick! and I'd get in at like 11.30 at night - far to annoying! plus I don't even have a valid passport so impossible really!
Anyway I am looking forward to it!
I use to have such a fobia of planes crashing to the ground; I still do, but at the same time, I love them now! Love flying; it's just so amazing!
Last night J came over here after work, then we walked to the station (as we just missed a bus) then waited for ages in the cold (wasn't good for my condition) for a train. we went to Murilbark (excuse spelling) station where we had to wait again for ages in the cold for a cab to take us to a friend H's house. There were a few more peeps there and we had a great night! He cooked a fab dinner too.
We ended up catching a cab back at about 3.30 then I went straight to bed.
Think I'll be tired later but this morning got up at 9.30.
Actually nanna arived and she's doing some housework for me. I get sooo behind especially when sick! I am so greatful she loves doing it!
OK LJ gang, again thanks for your support! I really appreciate it. Because I never have been one to seek attention or sympathy, I never like peeps thinking that's what I was doing. This journal though is of course for myself so that's why I do it.
Actually it was funny as I started to write that poem of yesterday with no deeper meaning than the surface. I mean it's funny as when I have been sick I honestly do feel like I am the only one in the world for a while after isolation for so long!
I am about to go shopping. it's good when nanna is with me because I feel I can take my time more with it.
Current mood: happy

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The Age, August 30, 2003

Is Madonna just up to her old tricks or is there something more to the Sapphic smooching on the MTV awards? asks Gabriella Coslovich.
Ho hum. Here we go again. Arch-eroticist, so-so-actor and sometime singer Madonna is fleshing out her bad girl repertoire, this time doing the larynx-limbo with pop nymphettes Britney Spears and Christina Aguilera.

A three-way girlie-snog was the climax of a raunchy dance routine performed by Britney, Madge and Aguilera at yesterday's opening of the MTV Video Music Awards in New York. But was their Sapphic smooching more a show of desperation than a sign of these sexually liberated times? And does anybody really care, other than the blokes out there salivating at the sight of Madge slurping on the pop babes snapping at her heels?

Lesbian chic, especially when appropriated by an ageing celebrity, or an advertiser flogging the latest must-have fragrance or kitten-heeled shoes, is as "now" as last season's ugh boot revival. More than 10 years have passed since LA Law's Amanda Donohue performed the first woman-to-woman kiss on prime-time American television. Everyone from Sex and the City's salacious Samantha to Rachel in Friends has since got in on the act. So what should we make of this latest trio of tongue-duelling femmes?

Andrew Mast, managing editor of the street paper Inpress, has no doubt that the Madonna-led snog-fest was fuelled by nothing more than a passionate need for publicity - Madonna is desperate to boost the flagging sales of her new album, American Life, Britney's about to launch her new collection of songs, and Aguilera has a tour to promote. Clearly it's a win-win situation.

"What you are looking at is Madonna, whose career is in decline at the moment... latching on to the new generation - it's literally kissing up to the next generation," says Mast. "Here's Madonna, who can't cause controversy any more, so she goes for the three-way leso kiss."

But even if the MTV antics are just a marketing ploy, are there positive spin-offs for the gay and lesbian community?

Adam Pickvance, executive officer of the ALSO Foundation, Victoria's oldest and largest gay and lesbian charity, says: "I don't see it as a gay and lesbian rights issue, I see it more as good on (Madonna) for pushing the sexual norm."

He says Madonna has a long and laudable history of challenging sexual stereotypes. "That's the world we are looking for, where people just accept that as adults we have diversity. Go, Madonna!" he says.

A former co-convenor of the Victorian Gay and Lesbian Rights Lobby, Catherine Roberts, however, is a little less impressed. "If it's just about marketing and titillating a male audience, then that's not really advancing anyone's cause... it cheapens us a bit. One of the issues our community constantly faces is that the media only focuses on the saucy, sleazy aspects of our community," Ms Roberts says.

Victorian Gay and Lesbian Rights Lobby incumbent co-convenor David McCarthy is also ambivalent about homosexuality's new-found fashion status and the subsequent impression that being gay is a "lifestyle choice" - that Madonna can passionately kiss another woman, then go home to the husband and kids. "That's just crap," he says. "No one would actually choose it. The reality of our everyday lives is that we face discrimination - financially, emotionally, personally... if they realised what it was really like (to be gay), perhaps they would not make such light of it."

The last word must surely go to mordant British columnist Julie Burchill, if only because she gives such good cheek. Burchill recently savaged ripening stars such as Liz Hurley who reveal "a previously unspoken loyalty to the Muffia" as a way of extending their use-by date.

"It's lesbo-chic now, but what will be the taboo taste-thrill that ageing glamour girls have to admit to in 10 years' time? Fancying dogs? Dead people? Dead dogs? Or maybe, shock horror, the Geris and Hurleys of the future will realise that a pretty face is not a passport but a visa - it runs out."
http://www.theage.com.au/articles/2003/08/29/1062050668494.html

I want Colin! :(

I want him back!
Remember Colin carpenter (or "Couln Carpenter!)
I was just thinking about that show before. Have thought about it a lot lately! where's all those good old ausie comedys gone??
Remember, wasn't there Julia Morris, Michael and Colin. then Julia moved out and Linda moved in?? (anyone remember)??
I loved that show. Colin was soooo funny. - the adventures and trouble they all got intoo.
I remember one particular eppisode when they were all on the 40 hour famyn and Colin ajusted the clock a few too hours cos he just couldn't wait til Sunday lunch when he could start pigging out again!
mmm that's about all I remember - oh Colin was a Santa at a shopping centre one time.
Damn I don't think I get many ausies reading this journal actually.
anyway come on australia, get your act together and get some ausie comedy back on TV!
oh who could forget the Comedy Company??? That totally ruled!!!
Wake up Australia??!!

Current mood: wishing