Jul. 23rd, 2004

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I do not swear, so this just shows how fucken angry I am! I am home so can say I have calmed down a little cos fortunately nan had arrived today and if she wasn't here I would have literally gone totally mad!
OK day was turning out OK til I sat down in Enquirey and presentation. and she came up and was starting the BS about the notetaker and she said that she knows I emailed her, she knows .. she just knew bloody everything and she would not even listen to me. She was worked up! She had the nerve to spin so much fucken BS and not even listen to me at all. she's a liar! She a humiliator and . everything else! OK She is still trying to claim that my results are connected to my note taking skills! She had the nerve to say that the only reason why I would have got a distinction in stories cultures is cos O would have spent a lot more time outside of class with me. How wrong you are bitch! and, also she was saying that I had told H that he needs to scan everything for me. No bitch, but I should be getting that.
R: I didn't say that at all. I merely stated that if he has stuff on computer if he can email it to me.
M buts in: we don't have time for that.
Me trying to keep my composure and saying "Well fine, give me the info and I will have it scanned.
Then of course she probably ran into a deadend so she started fucking on about how she realizes I am not asking them to do outside work/preparation but that I am.
R: No, not at all. All I am asking is for you to be able to read board notes to me.
M: that's fine but there is outside preparation.
oh and yes she was talking far from a proffessional, rational teacher at this point. She could tell I was starting to get worked up .. then I broke down again and got up and said "I can't cope with this" and walked out, and the stupid fucken bitch goes "don't walk away and cry" and as i was walking down the coridore she said "you sort it out" and I said "I will" (I had never answered back to a teacher before)
anyway then some L and a few others were coming and of course I was bawling and they were hugging me and trying to understand what was going on, but I was just so histerical I couldn't make much sense! anyway so bitch comes out and says "get back in the classroom you lot. I am not a bully. Rachel is always crying when we have these discussions" how wrong you are bitch! that was only once that I ever spoke and broke down at the beginning of last semester. get your facts straight you lying, fucken bitch! she just had told the whole coridore that's all! but she is not getting away with that (that later)
so when I got to the lift I met C and some others who asked "you coming to class" then I broke again and said "no way" and again, tried, unsuccessfully to explain everything. And I was saying everything that's illegal for me to say and that "I hate her" and I have never ever said that about anyone. Words can never describe my anger. anyway I went to the DLO in tears - lovely introduction there but she was very nice. I did mannage to explain everything so it made sense (even though I still couldn't stop crying) and she was just totally apauled at everything - her fucken attitude, and her fucken discrimination measures. and she was totally amazed at how I'd delt with this all on my own thus far and perceives me as being highly independent and all. so at last someone who fucken understands me! So we get the co-ordinator - Mary's manager and she got the picture and we all spoke about stuff and how smoothly I could go with it all from here. All my way - I mean like the Swinburn book says, I need electronic material. it's a requirement bitch! I need stuff to be scanned in advance! So fuck off bitch! you lost and I won! (this just goes to show how beyond angry I am. I never ever use this language, and I think I have every right to do it now). So who knows what convos have happened. But I know that K wouldn't have addressed the insults (cos yes, they were insults) and my DLO agrees totally with me! so yes this may be solved academically but not otherwise. I decided on the train (where i was so totally mad I didn't know what to do) that I am going straight to student union on Monday, and she will hopefully be fired as far as I'm concerned! fired fired fucken fired bitch! How fucken dare she handle it like she did and not only made me the angriest ever (hello blood-pressure buildup) but she humiliated me in front of my friends and others around in the coridore and neighbouring classrooms who I didn't even know!
If she's not been evil enough to be fired I want out of her class - even though we only have her for three hours a week, I know that I won't get over this in a hurry (as I would normally in lesser such situations). She is mental! She's got a mental illness! I suspected, now I presume more!
(T just called me before and made me feel so much better) then I had tea. but I love my class, everyone is supportive and they're all great friends!
T and i were saying how immature and utterly child-like it was for her to try and cover up herself "I'm not a bully!" lol that's almost ridiculous!
Even though she humiliated me in front of everyone in the coridore "I'm not a bully .. she always cries when we have these discussions!" Well for that humiliation, for not giving me a chance to talk, for lying through her teeth, I am going straight to student union on Monday and see what they think of her unproffessional behaviour.
One thing from here is certain. I don't want anything to do with her. I will look into if anyone else takes Inquirey but I don't think they do! If I have to do the diploma next year I will probably transfer sscoolls (if M isn't gone). the only pain is I'll miss my class!
Well thanks to Nan and T I have calmed down a lot, but all I can say is carma is a bitch and I hope it will catch up soon. I almost wish M becomes blind so she knows what it's like to be treated like BS from other ignorant sighties!
Rant over. I will just focus on relaxing this weekend.
Now the world knows I had never been so angry!
Til Next time, RdFreak

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