20 days! :)

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20 days til US! :) wohooo! under three weeks! :) wohoooo again! :)
Well Miss Heartly seems to be doing well now - little bitch! on my bed! she sure enjoyed her breakfast this morning! hahaha!
I am going to meet Peter S to have pizza near blackie station today for lunch, partly cos we've meant to catch up for a while now, and partly to discuss his experiencing travellin to US on his own! have had sooo much response from people! :)
So i will have to go another time to get the mic and stuff. yesterday Heartly ruined the day *grrrr! She will never ever experience the taste of ratsac again! *grrrr
Well that's about all! still behind on the friends page, and someone is sending me heaps of msn messages even though I'm set to "be right back" Lol "back right bee"? Lol haha OK i'm fine.
Tatitatitati
Til Next Time, RdFreak

cheesed off! *grrrr

OK so I just got really upset and mad for some reason. just came on at once. I don't know why. I dunno. maybe it's cos tlx2 can't come and see me. well I'm sorry but why did she want to tell me about that? (don't mean to attack. I am not) but my journal deserves a reason for my sudden mood change, so I'm dishing it! I mean I just don't know what to think about us two any more. I just want us both to make a decision cos yeah and that. it seems so sad. it's sad the way things have worked out. But ah well I can't do anything about it. not my fault that Puggle didn't know I ever existed there.
*sigh* it's not just that. I just need to know where I stand with people! I'm sick of these games. it doesn't do me any good!
It's kind of a shame I won't be seeing ST this weekend. just cos I think it would be healthy for both to chip up and move on with it. at least if he, (or anyone else) still wants to hold a grudge it's their problem, and I'm quite happy with my own new beginnings thank you very much! I don't need grudgeholders. but I also don't need ppl thinking that the wind has changed for ever. but, alas, I have decided I am not going to Amy N's party, am not going to the concert, cos I'm desperate to save spending money - as much as I damn well can, I am desperate. I wasn't going to go rock climbing either but Milos is fixing that (from my birthday). and Peter S shouted me today. that was nice! .. nice little cafe. nice lunch of chicken fedecheni (or however ya spell it) though I think it was too creamy for my little body to handle.
anyway I had meant to write this down. Later, was talking to Rich on Skype Lol
me: (about convention) I do kind of regret selecting the brothils as one of my tours. I guess, I just thought it'd be interesting since I never been to one before.
Rich: (laughs big time) Well I haven't either for that matter.
me: (realizing what I had just said and laughed) man I will never live that one down! :)
hmm and knowing rich, I won't Lol!
Oh, and I guess the other reason I started thinking, was the fact stupid freakin Mary is on my bio! why would I give her the satisfaction? *grrr .. last time Sue G was saying that I shouldn't beat myself up basically for not complaining but I guess I am, sometimes still! I wish I'd get over it! she's nothing to me. nothing. i just wish I found out that she lost her job! that would give me immense satisfaction. she deserves nothing but! she deserves to be severely penalized. She needs to go back to primary school and learn how to treat people.I dunno .. I am just going straight to my bio to fix my ruddy mistake!
Til Next time, RdFreak