mental blanking

this is damn terrible! I use to love writing stories! I use to love sitting there and dreaming up ideas, but now, it just does not happen! When I'm asked to write a draft of 500 words I just can't think of anything to write about. 500 words is a pretty short story though. maybe that's putting me off. who knows! But I am not sure what's happened since my young teenage mind use to spit out story after story; idea after idea for future stories, and they'd pop out at me an time. I could be doing anything and all of a sudden I'd get an idea for a story! Everyone told me that I'd probably become an author! now, it doesn't seem to matter what the word limit is, I can be sitting there for hours thinking of one little short story idea? what on earth has changed? I wish I knew! It's all like so forced now! anyway I think I finally got an idea for a 500 word short story but I decided to keep brainstorming and start writing later! that is not how I use to be. I never use to have to wait on it. words would just flow out into braille so easily! I honestly think that I got too use to sitting in front of the brailler and when I started having to write with puters, it put me off. I just remember in creative writing in year 9 I pretty well, for the first time, was forced to write a story on the computer and I found it sooo difficult! I have written stories on puters since then but I've never been the same and been able to let words flow the same. It sucks! but I write everything else on the puter. maybe I'll get use to it! afterall, I've never really known how thinking/brainstorming is connected to how one gets it out in words. ah well!
Well in previous news, yesterday I met Shell and Curt and had lunch at bakery. first time I really been out properly by myself since I got back from UK! terrible but true! first time I walked further than around the block. First time I got reminded of my surrounding neighbourhood. anyway I also got skype for Curt and installed some badly needed windows updates and had to update AVG which took so long, i am not sure it ever finished! It's a laptop and for ages I couldn't get into jaws cursor. then through the help of M who got the P right (it was another key in combination which I found myself eventually in keyboard help on)I found it, but then, I could not get back to PC cursor for some time! Lol had to make another phone call! I don't know many ppl in Melbourne who use jaws with laptops. I mean not that it matters cos I guess all laptops are different.
Anyway skype is sooo stupid. I tried to add myself but couldn't so signed in from home later and though I was trying to add myself on both accounts, both of them kept saying "this user has not shared his/her details with you" *grrr! I wouldn't get that stupid new dialog "say hello!" man skype has issues! but this version works so well with jaws. I mean ya hardly need scripts! you still do need to jaws cursor sometimes!
anyway Wednesday, hmm what did I do? I got a call about volunteering with MS. so am going there for an interview next wednesday. and it occured to me it's where Lou P works! so that kinda gave me a small world feeling and I was going to email and ask how she gets there, but I know already how to get to the street, it's just the number. so Nan is coming later. maybe I might meet her at station and walk up with her so she can point out where it actually is. It's just at the other end of the subway! and also I heard from Easton volunteers who I'd applied for too. I'd called her back just before and two weren't suitable but the third one was so I called outta Easton and she has to get back. so will go for an interview there.
Also I called Wise employment agency Wednesday and when I finally got to the disability section (a few phone numbers later) they were all in a meeting and one of them was gunna get back to me but they haven't yet. *grr May call them Monday if I don't hear from them. so yeah, it's all happening! I guess I am moving and feeling better for it too! yeah thanks thank Kicker!s! Lol :)
Oh Monday I am going into CAE to talk through the web chat problem and see what they (I guess) wanna do, and/or how to get around the problem.
tomorrow J, S and I are meeting with the M's and J has reccomended a nice CAFE apparently in Collins St, think she said! there's heaps of em around. there's also that one in fed square. so yeah it will be good to meet M for the first time tomorrow. she'll have met everyone else! Lol
also been thinking of doing something for my b/day next month. I mean I won't have a party here or anything but I might go to the pancake parlour with a few ppl! maybe?
Anyway guess that's about all for now!
Til Next Time, RdFreak
::edit:: Lol just after writing, someone from Wise called me and got info and said that someone else would be calling back which he just did (while in the middle of eating late breakfast) so got to go in there by 10.30. As it's closer to Nan, am thinking I might go back there after CAE and stay Monday night and then go in Tuesday. I need to bring in my resume (on disk cos my printer is dead cos inconsistency means dried up ribbons). need lazer printer or something, and I need photo ID, pension number and anything else. I lost my braille note temporarily again! it will come back; it always does! :)

writing meme

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