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Apr. 11th, 2007 07:10 pmWell this morning, I experienced something that was the very first for my life; I fainted! my gosh! Plenty of times, had I felt very faint but never had I actually full on passed out! it was sooo scarey too, and I hope it doesn't happen again any time soon!
OK well I went to the doctors this morning; idea being to have my ears cleaned and to get my mobility allowence form signed, oh and to change my prescription to Dianne from Estell. anyway, so yep, had told them at work I was going to be late, so no dramas there.
so, I went to see my usual dr. anderson - she's so lovely! anyway because my hormones are playing up, it was decided I should get a blood test; for that and iron. Kind of scarey, but I have had blood tests before and it being no problem. anyway, so she filled in the form (so yeah to more money!) and, I was kind of going over the whole procedure of a blood test in my mind. But, nothing could have prepared me, considering the last time I had a blood test was probably a few years ago now.
So yeh, after thinking while waiting, and waiting while thinking, I was called. The nurse rubbed the usual alcohol on my right forearm and told me to clench and unclench my fist. I obeyed, all the while dreading what was to happen next. "you'll feel a prick in your arm now"; that's fine; I've had it done before, stop feeling so scared Rachel! .. prick; and obviously what I didn't recall from last time was they leave it in there for a time! .. about ten long seconds go by .. OK OK you can take it out, now! I'm shouting in my head! but, the nurse has to do the cap up on the syringe or whatever before she could take it out. .. she took it out "ouch" I muttered" "sorry" replied nurse. me thinking "don't feel faint, don't feel faint." but, then, it swept over me all too soon, so I had to say something "Um, I feel faint" I said quickly.
"Do you want a glass of water"? asked nurse.
"No thanks" I murmered, thinking I really feel like throwing up about now. then, .. the next thing I remember, I was feeling deadly uncomfortable, I was squeezing Mum's hand (thank goodness she came, and, I really had no idea where I was or what just happened. Moreover, I didn't even feel connected with reality at all. I felt as if I was a million miles away yet I knew, vaguely that I needed to some how connect as a person again - so hard to explain, but, it just totally reminded me (thinking back on it later of course) of those many times my brain disconnects me from reality when I do reality checks on myself. -- so hard to explain, but I found the two feelings linked.
anyway, I recall saying "Oh my gosh; oh my gosh, where am I?" as I tried desperately to come back to focus! -- it was sooo uncomfortable and scarey! then, nurse said "do you think you can walk over to the bed"? so with Mum and Nurse's help, I staggered over to bed and lay down on the much-needed comfortable pillows and hardish matress. Then I heard Mum say "you fainted."
I lay there for a while longer, and gradually everything came back into focus. "Um, did I?" I asked, "wow, never done that before. Did I fall?" "no" answered Mum. "you just slumped." Then I became aware of a fan that wasn't on before, and nurse joking about it being freezing now! course, I don't remember fan being switched on, nor Mum coming over to grab my hand. or did I grab hers? anyway, ..
So after about five mins, I sat up, was handed a cup of water, slowly drank it and was told it was probably lack of iron. I noted it was also probably cos I hadn't had breakfast, in conjunction with thinking too much. We were then saying how I take after Mum (as she's fainted five times, all from events having occured in which her emagination runs whild.
so yeh, we then made our way back to the other section (after my imense apologizing to nurse. and she was so nice about it so I thanked her.)
so we waited for other nurse after that and she cleaned my ears!
then we grabbed some mackers then Mum dropped me at station and I made my way to work! I was fascinated at the link to my reality checks I give myself often. the brain is a strange thing. Mum explained it shuts off for a time; it definitely did that! odd!
so I've eaten a lot more today. i even cooked some rice after work and went down to get my indian dish and narn for takeaway and ate while watching neighbours; mmm baby! :) I'm addicted! actually I ate all of narn but fortunately had to leave most of chicken como for tomorrow. .. and that brings me up to now!
what a weird day!
til next time, RdFreak
OK well I went to the doctors this morning; idea being to have my ears cleaned and to get my mobility allowence form signed, oh and to change my prescription to Dianne from Estell. anyway, so yep, had told them at work I was going to be late, so no dramas there.
so, I went to see my usual dr. anderson - she's so lovely! anyway because my hormones are playing up, it was decided I should get a blood test; for that and iron. Kind of scarey, but I have had blood tests before and it being no problem. anyway, so she filled in the form (so yeah to more money!) and, I was kind of going over the whole procedure of a blood test in my mind. But, nothing could have prepared me, considering the last time I had a blood test was probably a few years ago now.
So yeh, after thinking while waiting, and waiting while thinking, I was called. The nurse rubbed the usual alcohol on my right forearm and told me to clench and unclench my fist. I obeyed, all the while dreading what was to happen next. "you'll feel a prick in your arm now"; that's fine; I've had it done before, stop feeling so scared Rachel! .. prick; and obviously what I didn't recall from last time was they leave it in there for a time! .. about ten long seconds go by .. OK OK you can take it out, now! I'm shouting in my head! but, the nurse has to do the cap up on the syringe or whatever before she could take it out. .. she took it out "ouch" I muttered" "sorry" replied nurse. me thinking "don't feel faint, don't feel faint." but, then, it swept over me all too soon, so I had to say something "Um, I feel faint" I said quickly.
"Do you want a glass of water"? asked nurse.
"No thanks" I murmered, thinking I really feel like throwing up about now. then, .. the next thing I remember, I was feeling deadly uncomfortable, I was squeezing Mum's hand (thank goodness she came, and, I really had no idea where I was or what just happened. Moreover, I didn't even feel connected with reality at all. I felt as if I was a million miles away yet I knew, vaguely that I needed to some how connect as a person again - so hard to explain, but, it just totally reminded me (thinking back on it later of course) of those many times my brain disconnects me from reality when I do reality checks on myself. -- so hard to explain, but I found the two feelings linked.
anyway, I recall saying "Oh my gosh; oh my gosh, where am I?" as I tried desperately to come back to focus! -- it was sooo uncomfortable and scarey! then, nurse said "do you think you can walk over to the bed"? so with Mum and Nurse's help, I staggered over to bed and lay down on the much-needed comfortable pillows and hardish matress. Then I heard Mum say "you fainted."
I lay there for a while longer, and gradually everything came back into focus. "Um, did I?" I asked, "wow, never done that before. Did I fall?" "no" answered Mum. "you just slumped." Then I became aware of a fan that wasn't on before, and nurse joking about it being freezing now! course, I don't remember fan being switched on, nor Mum coming over to grab my hand. or did I grab hers? anyway, ..
So after about five mins, I sat up, was handed a cup of water, slowly drank it and was told it was probably lack of iron. I noted it was also probably cos I hadn't had breakfast, in conjunction with thinking too much. We were then saying how I take after Mum (as she's fainted five times, all from events having occured in which her emagination runs whild.
so yeh, we then made our way back to the other section (after my imense apologizing to nurse. and she was so nice about it so I thanked her.)
so we waited for other nurse after that and she cleaned my ears!
then we grabbed some mackers then Mum dropped me at station and I made my way to work! I was fascinated at the link to my reality checks I give myself often. the brain is a strange thing. Mum explained it shuts off for a time; it definitely did that! odd!
so I've eaten a lot more today. i even cooked some rice after work and went down to get my indian dish and narn for takeaway and ate while watching neighbours; mmm baby! :) I'm addicted! actually I ate all of narn but fortunately had to leave most of chicken como for tomorrow. .. and that brings me up to now!
what a weird day!
til next time, RdFreak
