was happy, now sad

[rdfreak]

I was happy! 37 days til US - five weeks and three days! .. the other day I got the count wrong again Lol! it was failing to take into account the extra days of 31 days in May or somethin.
I can't wait to pay my last flight fees next week! I was all excited as I wrote back to rich about the kinds of food and snacks we'd like. now i'm sad again!
Saw JS, MD, CN, LE and co in the staff room and made me sad! something had to make me sad didn't it?! Lol! I miss them and the fun kinda relationship we all had. I don't know why. MD and LE certainly all of a sudden turned on me. and JS kinda did, but he half had a right too looking back, of course minus how he treated me by staying silent about his actions and all. But I miss them all anyway. only ones who aren't on msn is MD, LE, and BS. now why the freak did they all of a sudden turn on me? I don't know! some people are very strange! and to think how I was so excited about meeting MD. lucky I didn't plan anything. why do people just turn on you without a reason or explanation? I just don't get it sometimes!
anyway .. ahem I will get over this cos the rest of the world is all mine and generally I've been good so I can't let anything ruin my mood! :(
And I think my charmarie is getting bullied and humiliated for actions she had no involvement in and it's making her upset naturally! it makes me so sad when my friends are sad and hurting, especially when of course they get blamed for something they didn't do (just same with myself) some people have a nerve really?!
right, happy happy joy joy! I haven't eaten my breakfast and read my awesome friends page! so off I go to do that!
Til Next time, RdFreak

Comments

[eloquentsilence.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean...the same thing happens to me as well, where I have friends and we laugh and have good times, and one day I just see them turn away and just 'gone' ....no friendship anymore, no explanations. That sux big time.

Hope you'll feel better soon...
in no time you'll be in the states, and I hope you'll have the best time ever

[rdfreak.livejournal.com]

hey thanks! hey man, this freaky or what? I was just saying to Rich in an email before that "I'm going to have the best time ever!" using those exact words. that's pretty cool! wow! I know I will though!
I hope you're well and your family! (just read your latest entry! that's really wonderful! :)
*huge hugs*

[eloquentsilence.livejournal.com]

maybe you're becoming more intuned to the vibrations around...esp getting stronger:)

huge hugs

[rdfreak.livejournal.com]

you know I've noticed that more and more when I meditate! I really am! it's kinda amazing. it's freaky! how does it work? I mean how does it seem to increase it all?

[eloquentsilence.livejournal.com]

by meditating, you open up your third eye, and also you experience an altered consciousness, that allows you to be connected with the frequencies around. [I know it's not so easy to grasp]

[rdfreak.livejournal.com]

thanks. yeah it's pretty amazing! I would so love to be able to full on hear other frequencies like you have said :) ..

[simonica.livejournal.com]

I have been through the same sort of thing involving past friends and such. Take care.

innocent.. not

[bgdawg0385.livejournal.com]

She is not as innocent in this as u think. No hard feelings, but rache, u r wrong on this one.

Re: innocent.. not

[rdfreak.livejournal.com]

why is that so Andy? feel free to tell me here or call me on skype if you'd rather. thanks ..

Re: innocent.. not

[bgdawg0385.livejournal.com]

Hmm, she told my friend eric, who i must say is a person who is rather depressed, to hang himself, i saw a transcript of the convo? we can talk about this tomorrow (mytime) if u so wish.

Re: innocent.. not

[rdfreak.livejournal.com]

I was going to talk to you on skype but looks like you're away so yeah will chat to you tomorrow. but let me say here that in knowing her for as long as I have, and having had some very deep convos with her, I would have seen this more as a mis-understanding. It can certainly happen with text very easily. what can also happen is in text convos on msn or whatever, sometimes a recipient can respond to something that had been questioned earlier but due to the obvious constraints of a person to person atmosphere, the convo can appear a bit muddled. Happens with me all the time.
no I didn't read the convo and know what was said, but it is definitely not in her nature to suggest what you's are saying. Only vilent criminals (and no I don't use the term lightly) would suggest anything close to that. Not Char. I am just upset that anyone can believe she would be even capable of suggesting such things! I dunno what to say from here, am just very shocked that this is honestly being questioned and even "confirmed". anyway I dunno ..