"If you come back as a worm, and me a bird, I promise I won't eat you!!!"

ha ha ha, and she laughed, but man it was so not funny!
Trust stupid me to pull jokes out of my (beep beep) like that! gosh! I hardly knew the poor woman.
Rachel, you are a loser! You put your friends to shame! You bring yourself down! You are so embarrassing upon later reflection!
OK, well yeah, am talking about Thursday. I went along to RVIB for the VCE session then the study group oh yeah and the lunch that YBCV provided. It was an interesting day, and socially too of course.
A got more people, as only she does best, Lol.
And yeah we had a kinda fun activity in the afternoon, celebrating the day before being international disability day, or something. I couldn't really care less! I am not disabled! yes I know ppl like to call blindies that, but I refuse! I think it's just soooo stupid there is even such a term! I mean can't society just accept and use "blind", "deaf", "brainless" ha ha ha! Lol! j/k
Anyway, one of the activities was that we had to go around the room and state which animal we'd like to come back as. (yeah even now I don't know what that has to do with the price of fish at an egg market on a cage of apples - made that last bit up ha ha Lol :) but anyway. and I said that I'd like to come back as a bird if I had to come back as anything other than myself now.
Anyway yeah that went on and at the end of the day, (forget her name now) the RVIB marketting mannager was saying bye to A and I, and I made that stupid comment and laughed. and yeah like that was my idea of a joke to someone I'd never met before! I just thought about it whilst I was walking home and was just totally disgusted!
That night my show guide was on!
Friday I met A and W in the city for lunch then I went back to A's for the weekend. It was sooo nice there! totally a different experience to the ratrace in Melbourne! We did all sorts of cool stuff and got on soooo well! I just fell in love with her dog Fizz. She is a Bishon-freeze (haven't heard of them before - anyone else??
Anyway me hating all small dogs just found myself with this exception. If I didn't have my guide dog, I'd definitely be convinced to getting one. Even before i was wondering whether I should but i know my parents would think me totally crazy! not that it matters!
I left Heartly at parents and just used a cane! man it was tricky! was not use to it at all! I mean I hadn't used one for a while and I felt sooooo out-of-place; very clumsey.
I got lost in my own driveway yesterday because i am so use to Heartly finding my house. It was hot and I got myself teary.
I actually caught the Vline train myself to Melbourne and needed help at Spencers but at least that service is available. I couldn't get my train from there as they just happened to be doing track work on that particular platform, on the only day I wanted to use it.
Anyway I got home in one piece!
Oh yesterday while in Sumbory (excuse spelling) A and I went to our old house! I knocked and asked if they'd mind me looking around and that was OK! But damn, i forgot to mention that Dad had built some parts! remembered on the train!
but now at least I have a picture when the photos are being discussed!
Today i did nothing. Spent a lot of time on troopannum but that's about all. It's hot here today - even hotter tomorrow, 36, wow! just too much!
Well all for this one
Til next time, RdFreak

BigBrother prep (part 1)

Well i guess you could say I am going to create this minny kind of journal (if you will) within this big one. This will be "friends-only" minus my two real life friends, but it will change once my application (stage is done! This is incase I get on the show!
Well yes, maybe I am thinking positive, but I have always had the best feeling about me being on there! Bigbro 4, here I come!
Thursday the 4th of december was what myself (and am sure stacks of others) have all been waiting for! "The guide" (my show guide) "COULD YOU, WOULD YOU, SHOULD YOU".
My baby Gretel was hoasting it, and it basically had all the past housemates giving their thoughts and stuff about applying, etc.
It went for an hour, and basically when it all came down to it, at the end, the only thing that was said about how to apply was go to the web site and we'd be instructed from there! So that is what I did. I filled in the first online form which took quite a while as jaws wasn't reading a few fields properly, but it was better than previous years; will creddit them for that! :) or maybe it's just that it's now Jaws 4.5.
So yeah it was a bit of going in and out of jaws cursor, but I was done about midnight.
Then i was required to print out legal terms so I can sign it. So as my printer is not with it, I sent it to S to print as i'd planned to visit there with A the next day before going to her house.
So I emailed it to Sharon!
Then I also read that i needed to send in a signed recent photo of myself.
Then, a VHS vidio tape with 3 to 5 mins of talking about me and "being creative!"
We also got a number which we have to write on all correspondence to them!
So, Angela and I called into visiquip Friday and Sharon printed out the form! (what a legend!"
And since I have been on the hunt for a friend with a video camera, and so far have had no luck at all! It's surprising that not many people own them!
anyway if worse comes to worse, I will hire one and get hopefully Coby and/or Kellie (who I just emailed before) to come here and help with it.
I have done half a kind of script on my braille note of what I want to say!
Oh yeah applications need to be in by the 12th of Jan, so fortunately I have a while, but I am keen to go with it as soon as I can!
I feel kinda bad keeping it from parents. They have a video cam too so it would have been good, but they will only find out at the last minute when I'm on. and even then it's gunna be hard to tell them!
It's hard as I respect their opinions and all but at the same time, i feel it's my life! We have always been different with a lot of ideas. They consider this abnormal whereas I see it far from! I mean of course I most probably won't be seen on "BIGBROTHER UNCUT" or anything but, that's me!
Til next update, RdFreak