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Jan. 25th, 2005 06:34 amhmm so I woke at about 4 and didn't feel like laying there if I was wide awake. so I got up on the puter, went on ventrilo, immediately got followed in by someone I had no intentions of hearing from given the moment in time, played on the zone for a while, went back to bed while reading my LJ friends page, didn't get myself much more tired, just freezing all of a sudden then wishing (but thinking I'd be totally mad if I did) I could turn my electric blanket on, because, despite the temp will be reaching 40 C today and that I was kinda hot in the beginning I was damn shivery and goosebumpy. and, I have a jumper on now! man this weather is weird.
So as I tried to explain to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sugar84 I don't have a problem with her, just her friend (who he just happens to be) for very good reasons which I am about to go intoo. No, I likewise do not have a problem with raynbo0701 she's officially my room mate at convention. I'll be calling the hotel today and confirming my "reservation" as they like to call it over there!
Anyway like I try and make clear, I don't have problems with friends of the troublemakers; that is just stupid and highly immature. I may certainly find myself facing issues with those who have led me to believe that I have good reason too.
Needless to say, despite what my previous entry pointed too, I will not be aiming to get on Onj's radio station. Because I was severely disappointed and highly unamused by his and P's actions on the clocks mailing list yesterday. These two seem to like to believe that it's solely their opinions that count when it comes to stimuli that the "blind community" finds enjoyable or not. And as far as P is concerned, I have tried to put up with on and off going behaviour of this nature from him for years, and now I say .. enough is enough!
Sure, I am definitely only too use to power-trippers unfortunately but when people like to make generalizations to an entire community, that is just really and truly *not on in my books and it makes me so sad that some people feel they need to boost their egos in these ways.
But ah well, that's that. I've come such a long way in getting to know and love myself. I am very honest now, and I do tell it like it is. Maybe too much so, which ended me in a bit of trouble last year, but it's definitely better to not have to feel like people can walk all over you! Indeed, some may argue (my Mother being a prime example) that I am still too honest for my own good and that my standards for friendship and other is set way way too high, and sometimes I secretly find myself wondering if she's right. While occasionally, a lot of the time, it can land me in trouble, (and I can here and now be the first to admit that I've created some real messed-up friendships lately) it can help me greatly determine my "real" friends from the "fake" ones and hence, I only wind up with people who love and respect me in the most sincerest sense of the words,(and the same from me to them) and, damnit if we hurt each other, it's very very easy to understand the cause and affect thinggy, and so we can sort it out and move on.
So, well that's been more or less rolling around me little head for the past couple of hours and this can be a good thing. At least one can conclude that they're not going mad, but they are simply trying to protect their past, present and future! (Man that was deep! I've never been like that before; go me! :) Lol Lol
Well not much other news to report really! sad I guess, but true! I have become very unmotivated and I think soon I need to do something about it. either this or move away from this puter for a while! I want to catch up with a heck of a lot of my friends who will be busy soon, so I should be thinking of that. Haven't called Lifeline. Can I be bothered? who knows! I know I wanna be involved in something between now and US time.
Oh and I have called the Travel agent, and as she said, and as all the "travel" web sites elude too, the deals now are all for before I wanna go, so I am currently waiting til next month before I make any other arrangements since if ya try and look for upfront fairs for where I wanna go now, they are anywhere from 1800 to 3000 dollars! unbelievable really! so yeah! I am getting much support from a lot of my friends, especiallyenchanterglen who will be on the lookout for deals within the US, so yeah for supportive friends! :)
Today, 40 C, probably won't venture out. Heartly is still at my parents and I miss her! but I prefer her being there than bored here! She has certainly got the bigger backyard to run in which makes me happy!
Right me thinks it's enough gabbling for now! The birds are now singing and knowing me in these situations, I may feel inclined to crash soonies! but then again, i may not. I am terribly unpredictable! Lol
Til Next Time, RdFreak
So as I tried to explain to
sugar84 I don't have a problem with her, just her friend (who he just happens to be) for very good reasons which I am about to go intoo. No, I likewise do not have a problem with raynbo0701 she's officially my room mate at convention. I'll be calling the hotel today and confirming my "reservation" as they like to call it over there!Anyway like I try and make clear, I don't have problems with friends of the troublemakers; that is just stupid and highly immature. I may certainly find myself facing issues with those who have led me to believe that I have good reason too.
Needless to say, despite what my previous entry pointed too, I will not be aiming to get on Onj's radio station. Because I was severely disappointed and highly unamused by his and P's actions on the clocks mailing list yesterday. These two seem to like to believe that it's solely their opinions that count when it comes to stimuli that the "blind community" finds enjoyable or not. And as far as P is concerned, I have tried to put up with on and off going behaviour of this nature from him for years, and now I say .. enough is enough!
Sure, I am definitely only too use to power-trippers unfortunately but when people like to make generalizations to an entire community, that is just really and truly *not on in my books and it makes me so sad that some people feel they need to boost their egos in these ways.
But ah well, that's that. I've come such a long way in getting to know and love myself. I am very honest now, and I do tell it like it is. Maybe too much so, which ended me in a bit of trouble last year, but it's definitely better to not have to feel like people can walk all over you! Indeed, some may argue (my Mother being a prime example) that I am still too honest for my own good and that my standards for friendship and other is set way way too high, and sometimes I secretly find myself wondering if she's right. While occasionally, a lot of the time, it can land me in trouble, (and I can here and now be the first to admit that I've created some real messed-up friendships lately) it can help me greatly determine my "real" friends from the "fake" ones and hence, I only wind up with people who love and respect me in the most sincerest sense of the words,(and the same from me to them) and, damnit if we hurt each other, it's very very easy to understand the cause and affect thinggy, and so we can sort it out and move on.
So, well that's been more or less rolling around me little head for the past couple of hours and this can be a good thing. At least one can conclude that they're not going mad, but they are simply trying to protect their past, present and future! (Man that was deep! I've never been like that before; go me! :) Lol Lol
Well not much other news to report really! sad I guess, but true! I have become very unmotivated and I think soon I need to do something about it. either this or move away from this puter for a while! I want to catch up with a heck of a lot of my friends who will be busy soon, so I should be thinking of that. Haven't called Lifeline. Can I be bothered? who knows! I know I wanna be involved in something between now and US time.
Oh and I have called the Travel agent, and as she said, and as all the "travel" web sites elude too, the deals now are all for before I wanna go, so I am currently waiting til next month before I make any other arrangements since if ya try and look for upfront fairs for where I wanna go now, they are anywhere from 1800 to 3000 dollars! unbelievable really! so yeah! I am getting much support from a lot of my friends, especially
enchanterglen who will be on the lookout for deals within the US, so yeah for supportive friends! :)Today, 40 C, probably won't venture out. Heartly is still at my parents and I miss her! but I prefer her being there than bored here! She has certainly got the bigger backyard to run in which makes me happy!
Right me thinks it's enough gabbling for now! The birds are now singing and knowing me in these situations, I may feel inclined to crash soonies! but then again, i may not. I am terribly unpredictable! Lol
Til Next Time, RdFreak
