15 days! :)

OK so 15 more days to go and now I am just damn impatient Lol! I'm so bored - my fault really! I'm being a lazy little thingomejiggy person!
Lol i spent all morning mucking around with this voice-changing program demo that americanaussie1 explained about in her lJ! it's awesome! :) I was talking to the mic for hours this morning! Lol It's not too jaws friendly but hopefully they'll change that. I will also be writing to them! but, considering it's kind of a small program, I mean, with not much publicity (I hadn't heard of it) I somehow doubt it, but maybe. I dunno who they listen to and why, and all that!
I've been doing a lot of thinking. Lol I am always doing too much thinking, but, last night I'm thinking how emotionally involved I've got with people lately and then for whatever reason, I find myself getting slapped in the face. So, I am not going to allow myself to get emotional over a guy, or a girl. I was thinking how much of a hastle it always turns out to be emotionally. (am not saying I wanna be physical without the emotions, no way) what I'm saying is that I think I will be better off without a relationship, or without giving in to temptations. I mean hey, I may be bored of life now but there's always things to do - networking, etc. who needs relationships? they're just too confusing and complicating and stuff. Maybe I just need my friends. will leave the other to whoever wants to be upset and depressed. it's not me! I don't wanna get hurt any more. I just told myself last night that I feel within me I have my life finally sorted out so why would I feel the need to go bac to square one? (OK so who knows? I will probably find I'm totally the opposite of this in ten years time? maybe) but now at least, I can't understand why I'd want to get hurt again! Also sometimes people will play games without realizing it. face it, I do not understand guys. I don't think I ever will. And as one girl said on BigBrother last night, girls are sooo bitchy. I really can't win either way, so why bother?! Just be happy with the friends you have, and the future ones you will make, and having the ability to hopefully travel further and wider in the future! so that's what my little brain was ticking about last night!
and I had wanted to say something else here but I side-tracked myself in a big way! hmmm doh!
ah that voice program is cool though!
and now I go wash dishes while watching the rest of Doctor Phil!
Til Next Time, RdFreak

before bed:

I actually remembered, a few hours ago, what I had planned to say in the previous entry. that, in melbournemaniac there was a job advertized at Pet's paridise in glenwaverly. After finding out what the job entailed I'd replied that I thought i may go for it. I do happen to remember Stacy (from Hands) use to work behind the counter at the cimemmas, hence me knowing a blindy who successfully went through that. and the other thing was cleaning out the pet cages and feeding them (which I don't think would be too different for a blindy - considering friends did it while working at SEDA) .. so yeah it's full time, and man I'd love it! I already know how to get there - well I'd just need O&M from the station to the Glen but it's not far. did the walk only few weeks ago when I had tea out after the travel session with YBCV. so, I'd lovve it for experience. though of course I wouldn't give high hopes cos I'm a blindy but, I don't have any hope if I don't try! .. damn if I got rid of my resume off here I'll be extremely annoyed! *grrr I actually can't remember where i put it, and I didn't see anything in "my documents" last time I checked. so *grr to me. I wrote it from scratch again when I went for that damn teacher's aid! oh, maybe I put it in the "careers folder" I made. nope I didn't. what a fruitcake! only other place it would be is my attachments folder as i attached it to dad to print out at work. if it's not there I'll be annoyed! *grr my gosh thank god for that! it's there! woh I'm better than i thought I was Lol! so yeah, I may give it a go.
and also, I burnt my hand again tonight. not bad but I was straining the boiling water from pasta and I tried to hold the strainer up a bit (instead of resting in the sink) which was stupid cos yeah I had no hands to feel where I was pouring so "ouch" there goes my pointer side of my left hand! Lol ah well!
I'm so tired!
Til Next Time, RdFreak