Five days til summer! :)

and thank god, cos it's freeeeeezing here! though I think I won't be much better off in SFO Lol .. got to remember warm stuff still - winter clothes, not just summer! .. but Vegas, different story! sounds evil in fact!
Just had breakfast, and Michelle just called me again. *grrrr give me space girl! she complains that she's calling everyone but she doesn't give us a chance to call her. when I say "I'll call you back later" maybe I just mean "hold off on the calls please" I mean gosh! I can understand that woman for telling her she calls too much! I mean, honestly, think about it! .. I try and be understanding. afterall, she probably can't help a lot of it but damn!
It all came out yesterday; was telling Mum that a while ago she'd asked if I could bring her something back from US? at the time I couldn't say much but now I'm thinking "what a freakin cheak!" I won't be bringing my famly even, anything back because I just can't afford too. I am not bringing back anything. call me selfish but that's your problwem! I will have my money and since I will still be getting use to how expensive things are over there, I am master of my money and you're not! Lol .. sorry ppl just annoy me! *grr .. I dunno, honestly. I appreciate her in small doses; that's all anyone can handle I think. I really do like her in small doses but I do have other things to do and people to see, and I also like my space. I do feel sorry for her. I just can't do anything. She says I'm one of the nicest people she knows, and it makes it hard to try and back away. I always reply with "well I try to be" as I do. but it is just me trying to understand her and how her illness affects her. all I want is to tone it down, you know? don't have to call me every hour of the day, please.
OK end of rant. just will vent in my journal if i need too!
Oh btw I am getting the hang of 0spam.com but am still getting messages appearing in the junk box on the site that are list messages even though I've whitelisted the lists and the domains! ah well! guess i'll eventually sort it out! at least I'm worrying about much much less spam on my server! All I have to do is go nomail on my yahoogroups and get off some lists altogether and I will have a pretty normal email list cuing up for me to check on the occasions I do so.
Til Next Time, RdFreak

my gosh!

Well, the good news is that I finished my packing. Mum came to help me and tomorrow we go to the docs as I get my ears emptied out again! I hope I won't have probs on the plane!
In other news, I am getting more and more alergic to chocolate (I think maybe some more than others) and it sucks! I feel winded all the time.
And, well, I am finding that I am being accused behind my back! funny how people can, for what ever reason, have so many problems with me (for speaking my mind and being honest about the true value of a "friend"), that they can't even have the courage to speak to me. Instead, they try and persuade my best friend, and that, I will *not allow! Not that she would be swayed - she knows me too well. but I just wanted all of us to be over this primary school crap. He gets sooo worked up over things and I'm really dead sick of it! Nothing is good enough. Everyone is always wrong.
Well I am no longer putting up with the attitude. I am not going to be told by "friends" what I will say and will not say in future to prevent arguments. that's the problem that I lashed out about after he was willing to give me "one more chance" Lol it's so pathetic I can laugh about it now! but at the time, I was *grrr mad! but damnit all to heck, ya know .. if ya have a problem with me, or if you wish to accuse me of something, have the guts to come to my face and don't go through others, and especially not my best friend, cos she doesn't need it and either do I! Asking once is fine, if you have to but let her answer to the best of her ability and leave it at that!
anyway really, I am excited and that! was talking to glen on skype before. I forgot his birthday yesterday! I am always doing that now! I have got the worst memory. so, what did I do? sent out Birthday alarms. Lol!
I soo can't believe I'll be seeing enchanterglen, Rich and caitlin45 just next week! then at convention, puppybraille, shazza59, toonhead and DW just to name a few! then course, ruuk in Florida and carebare75 just to name a couple of em out there!
It's sooo exciting! and ever since I could remember, it's been a dream to go to the US! As I was saying to glen before, will have to keep giving myself reality checks when I land in SFO Sunday. :) Sunday B it will be for me! :)
yeah!
Til Next Time, RdFreak