getting in touch

well, I often like to reflect in here about friendship; the good and the bad. it's my journal and I'll cry if I want too. I'm always a peoples person and value my friends very damn highly. I also like to think I am very loyal.
apart from those stupid couple of nuts who have decided for whatever reason to end our friendship, I feel that this year (and in some cases before it) I have been not as good as I should be in keeping friends. This year without a doubt I went through some struggles, as per usual for me. but, I had made some great friends (mostly online) whom I have found it hard to keep up with.
I've tried to detatch myself from the net a bit, and mostly that's a good thing. but it means I do risk losing some very good friends I have made online.
Sometimes this year, I have felt lost cos I felt I lost a lot of those good friends.
This morning after being on the zone for a while, I decided to get on ventrilo - something I hadn't done in ages. I was welcomed big time and it honestly makes me feel very good. For whatever reason, a couple want to reunite with me. and another one wonders cos I don't talk to them a lot - a few people do actually. I explain that it's not just them. I am always saying that and it's starting to really annoy me! It's a lot easier, especially online, to lose contact with people if you don't make the effort!
As I told louise_1985 this morning, it was honestly making me sad that I had failed to get the MD recordings to her from her b/day. I can be so slack, especially when its technology that I have to work a bit with to get it going. luckily she is very understanding! I can be slack sometimes but I'm glad I'm not hated for it!
so yeh, it was just good to reunite with a lot of them this morning, except it's a shame that I learnt Maddog was behind all that saga with my zone community leader thing ending. Him and Liam, and cos it seemed that J couldn't make his own decisions, well .. that's what happened. anyway Maddog and myself use to get along quite well. am not even sure what I did but hey, that's all over now; water under the bridge. We're civil which is the main thing I guess.
hmm OK, (since I've started it) the reason I wonder if J can make his own decisions is cos of that whole community leader thing. We planned for me to attend the community leader staff meeting, then a day later I was shut out and, I have only recently found out it was maddog and L who were behind that. what I ever did to L I don't know! sometimes people just amaze me! but ah well, these, as I say, are my thoughts only in my own journal. I am over it now; you'd think I should be, after two years. course though, like anything, when things are brought back up, one has to reflect on these happenings.
I just felt overwhelmed again and went off on a totally different tanjent; go me! :)
So, I need to make an effort of keeping in touch with friends online as well as off. I certainly do have a few closer friends overseas.
yeh for my rambly rambly rambles.
Til next time, RdFreak

well well - what would you do?

So, I don't usually ask questions to ppl in my LJ (unless it's a poll or something similar) .. ahem .. but, finally! after long last, after weeks, months, Skye tells the truth in Ramsay Street - well only half the truth. She told dilan, while laying in her sick bed that the baby wasn't his.
man I've been waiting for this for months! So they all turn against her, even Harold, - silly people! sure, it was a terrible lie but you'd think Harold would support her no matter what, being her grand-dad and all. Oh, sorry, Dil's grandma (forget her name) does support her. she said it exactly like it was .. that sure, she made a big mistake but ..
then Skye tells Dill towards the end of the show that the baby belongs to someone else they both know and so when she was given the ultimatum by Dil, she replies she can't do it for that reason.
On the previews next week, all hell sounds like it will break loose, so, at last, I think stingray finds out! that will be good!
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Til Next time, RdFreak