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Oct. 12th, 2006 10:50 amDear Milos,
Well I can't believe it's been a year. Time goes quite quickly. I still remember you being a part of us as if it were just yesterday. On the other hand, a lot of time has past and there is not a time when I don't think about you or wonder how you would have coped in a given situation. I definitely miss our phone chats, I miss our meet ups. I still can't believe you had to leave us so soon. I'll never forget that ffaitful day. I came home from the intro to my writing course at CAE; chris had called me sounding quite annoyed; more annoyed than usual that I wasn't home.
But you know me, I decided I'd call Chris later and casually went to my email. I think a part of me feared the tone in Chris' voice but I tried to dismiss it. then J called in the afo and I had told her casually that Chris had called but I'd call him back later. then she asked me if i knew why he had called that particular time to which I replied no not really. then she, the poor girl, gave me the news. From then on, I wasn't the same person, a part of me died when I heard you had. I never had the loss of someone so close to me before and I certainly took it so much worse. I was histerical throughout the rest of that convo, and then Mum called me, and I couldn't stop crying on the phone to her. She had asked if I needed her to come down. I think I replied I'd try and be brave but it was definitely the hardest thing ever.
I remember for the longest time afterwoods I kept on thinking it would just be like you to casually call me up one day and say "I'm only joking; I'm still here!" Throughout the time as well, I'd have so many dreams about you, and I'd wake up and be all confused.
Like I say, a part of me died with you and I won't ever be completely the same as when you were here.
Many people have different beliefs, that's what makes the world I guess. but without a doubt I've always believed that people who have died can look down on us from heavin and know what's going on in this world, and of course I believe you are doing this.
Were you with us when we celebrated your birthday this year? I hope we can celebrate many birthdays to come of your earth days.
I miss you, and I love you.
Rachel K 13/10/06 (don't let the date fool you! :):)
Well I can't believe it's been a year. Time goes quite quickly. I still remember you being a part of us as if it were just yesterday. On the other hand, a lot of time has past and there is not a time when I don't think about you or wonder how you would have coped in a given situation. I definitely miss our phone chats, I miss our meet ups. I still can't believe you had to leave us so soon. I'll never forget that ffaitful day. I came home from the intro to my writing course at CAE; chris had called me sounding quite annoyed; more annoyed than usual that I wasn't home.
But you know me, I decided I'd call Chris later and casually went to my email. I think a part of me feared the tone in Chris' voice but I tried to dismiss it. then J called in the afo and I had told her casually that Chris had called but I'd call him back later. then she asked me if i knew why he had called that particular time to which I replied no not really. then she, the poor girl, gave me the news. From then on, I wasn't the same person, a part of me died when I heard you had. I never had the loss of someone so close to me before and I certainly took it so much worse. I was histerical throughout the rest of that convo, and then Mum called me, and I couldn't stop crying on the phone to her. She had asked if I needed her to come down. I think I replied I'd try and be brave but it was definitely the hardest thing ever.
I remember for the longest time afterwoods I kept on thinking it would just be like you to casually call me up one day and say "I'm only joking; I'm still here!" Throughout the time as well, I'd have so many dreams about you, and I'd wake up and be all confused.
Like I say, a part of me died with you and I won't ever be completely the same as when you were here.
Many people have different beliefs, that's what makes the world I guess. but without a doubt I've always believed that people who have died can look down on us from heavin and know what's going on in this world, and of course I believe you are doing this.
Were you with us when we celebrated your birthday this year? I hope we can celebrate many birthdays to come of your earth days.
I miss you, and I love you.
Rachel K 13/10/06 (don't let the date fool you! :):)
