And I'm still up because ..

Wow, have no idea why I'm still up, and what is wrong with my sleeping patterns. I've just been downloading some music - something i rarely do these days) but I think I will go to bed right about now.
The things I can't put off til tomorrow what I can do today .. Lol!
Til Next time, RdFreak

angry? maybe not!

Before, I was feeling quite angry at the world; I know; it has been my mood for sometime now; this is for obvious reasons and if people can't deal with that, it is not my problem.
As I explained once before in here, at the end of last year, my life seemed like it was all of a sudden picking up; except for getting my Joy, all the other promises once again proved wrong when everything else fell back down again.
As I think i also mentioned in the past, this LJ will probably become more friends only, and I do publically apologize to those who can't benefit from that, but it's my journal; the only one i use and I need to be able to vent more without knowing some people can read it hence feeling humiliated
The other week, I did a minny friends cut, saying I may extend this; I just have. And I'm serious this time; no going back (as i have in the past with a couple of people. (Indeed K and I made up, so I added him back, because apart from our grumbles with each other sometimes, he is one of my true friends). As has become an LJ cliche with these things, I haven't cut to be mean. Neither have I actually done it for any power-trip reasons (which i admit, may have been reason/s in the past). Moreover, I have cut a couple of people I consider good friends; there's a good reason why I did it though; As this LJ is becoming more of a place I'm going to feel comfortable confiding everything to at a protected level, said people do not update their LJs much or at all, and I don't think it's fair they get access to my life like an open book.
Others though, claim they are friends, but they are not.
And others I of course haven't clicked with, or have stopped clicking with.
Moreover, there may be just one or two LJs still there that I very much enjoy reading, even though we may not talk often.

OK enough with that crap.
I am thinking now that it's mid-week, the chances of me getting this job are getting slim, and that makes me angry; angry because I have spent hours volunteering for this organization, but no, the manager wouldn't be aware of this, because, as usual with the head ones there these days, they come and go at such a rapid rate and consequently, wouldn't even have had the chance of meeting us and seeing what we've done in the past. -- i shall make this known if they have the courtesy to get back to me and let me know I didn't get the job.
I have started worksheet one of ITE1. I've delt with one job description; I will do the others later.
Might go and give the dogs a run outside now. Then after Doctor Phil, I go and do some shopping. Was thinking, may still go to the gym tomorrow regardless of my hoping to go overseas.
Til Next time, RdFreak

My awesome dogs! :)

I think I mentioned in here how awesome my dogs are! They're really starting to bond with each other for real now! they actually play with each other; occasionally, one of them gets a bit rough and the other barks; methinks it's joy getting rough and Heartly barking; silly dogs! Lol But seriously, I haven't seen Heartly this happy in ages, and that really makes me happy! Joy is certainly a natural all-round happy dog, whereas Heartly just isn't. a lot of people actually says she looks sad, but I think that's just how most labs look. But when they play and lay together now, I can hear the thump thump thump of a Heartly tail, and trust me, I never use to always be able to get her to do that on my own!
Then, for about the fourth time this week, I had left Joy outside before with toilet harness/bag attached, left her for a while and came back to discover she has dropped some into the bag, (I know right; it's like a Mum skiting about her new-born, Lol :)
I will still go shopping soon of course with Joy and jeap.
In slightly annoying news, I just saw B's name on vip-l. That got me down again after just having picked myself up; sucky! he's got a lot to answer for. I got to see whether he's giving my "stuff" back, but unlike when I slipped up a few weeks ago, calling him now may not really be a good thing for me to do.
til Next time, RdFreak