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rdfreakjust came back from my ninth singing lesson, (and no I'm not going to keep counting them cos it prob sounds corney). just worked more on "HOW DO I LIVE". and she's moving at the end of the month to Malvern, so another route to learn, *sigh*
this week, I actually ended up taking a sicky on the thursday as I had gotten myself far too worked up on Wednesday. Fortunately L and I didn't have too many confrontations this week, but the fact that she's there, and I'm always so nervy she's watching me all the time; walking in and out; "is she going to be there and get down on me again"? oooh, what if I make a tiny mistake; bad bad! I couldn't bare it! plus, I did make a tiny error on the board; I put someone to the wrong person. She didn't tell me off; just informed me what I'd done, in her usual L--- manner!
So I wound up with chest pains on wednesday night. I slept in til 8.30 Thursday morning, even with the radio on, so I wouldn't go back to sleep. this told me I had a lot of energy taken out of me from always being alert of L! I did contemplate going in late, but concluded I should really take a day off and just try and calm myself down. so I called her. She ended with her usual "take care", though it sounded a bit fake to me, but god only knows what's up with her! I don't, and as I've said to people, normally it wouldn't phaze me what she thought of me. I am seriously done concerning myself with what the world thinks, as I have so learnt, that no-one can please everyone. but of course, cos L is my boss, I got to conform to her a bit, even if it means trying my best to meet with her un-realistic expectations. -- She has not got a clue how blind people need to operate, and she will not be told!
anyway, will see how things go, but I have been contemplating seeing if BCA have any suggestions.
It's one thing to just do what she says to keep her quiet, but it's another thing to walk around the place so damn nervy all the time, that if I stuff up, she may be watching me. I can't hack that!
anyway, a few people have suggested I have a quiet word with her, then they've gone back on it, so I dunno. My instincts tell me a small word can't hurt; maybe we can both at least try to understand each other more, that's of course, if she respects my opinions at all!
In other news, I get my casio next week, I am guessing!
Not much to report with BigBrother, but Two of the three web auditioners (who crashed last Sunday) Michael and Barney were evicted at Sunrise Wednesday morning (think it was). after refusing the mission that was given to cory, Terry had to take it on.
Cory is still a house mate. I thought he was going again last week, but I guess not!
the voting system has changed. During the week, the public votes to save their favourites out of all the housemates, then, on the Sunday, the bottom three will be nominated by the house mates for eviction.
Nathan (the remaining web auditioner) won FNL last night, but as he is still on his first week, he is not in the voting deal yet, so the runnerup, travis, gets to find out who the bottom three is. He also gets the power to take one of the people out of the list of evictees and put another in (like one of last year's powers), and he also gets his nomination points doubled instead of the standard housemate's voting 1 and 2 points.
The winner of FNL becomes head of house for the week, which has been still given to Nathan. They also get dinner for two in a strategy room, where they can talk about any and everything, including evictions.
I had previously read about this strategy room on Behindbigbrother.com.
well, guess about all for now!
I'm mostly done with trying to please everybody in this world though; done and done! I've delt with so much crap lately, and, enough is enough!
til next time, RdFreak
this week, I actually ended up taking a sicky on the thursday as I had gotten myself far too worked up on Wednesday. Fortunately L and I didn't have too many confrontations this week, but the fact that she's there, and I'm always so nervy she's watching me all the time; walking in and out; "is she going to be there and get down on me again"? oooh, what if I make a tiny mistake; bad bad! I couldn't bare it! plus, I did make a tiny error on the board; I put someone to the wrong person. She didn't tell me off; just informed me what I'd done, in her usual L--- manner!
So I wound up with chest pains on wednesday night. I slept in til 8.30 Thursday morning, even with the radio on, so I wouldn't go back to sleep. this told me I had a lot of energy taken out of me from always being alert of L! I did contemplate going in late, but concluded I should really take a day off and just try and calm myself down. so I called her. She ended with her usual "take care", though it sounded a bit fake to me, but god only knows what's up with her! I don't, and as I've said to people, normally it wouldn't phaze me what she thought of me. I am seriously done concerning myself with what the world thinks, as I have so learnt, that no-one can please everyone. but of course, cos L is my boss, I got to conform to her a bit, even if it means trying my best to meet with her un-realistic expectations. -- She has not got a clue how blind people need to operate, and she will not be told!
anyway, will see how things go, but I have been contemplating seeing if BCA have any suggestions.
It's one thing to just do what she says to keep her quiet, but it's another thing to walk around the place so damn nervy all the time, that if I stuff up, she may be watching me. I can't hack that!
anyway, a few people have suggested I have a quiet word with her, then they've gone back on it, so I dunno. My instincts tell me a small word can't hurt; maybe we can both at least try to understand each other more, that's of course, if she respects my opinions at all!
In other news, I get my casio next week, I am guessing!
Not much to report with BigBrother, but Two of the three web auditioners (who crashed last Sunday) Michael and Barney were evicted at Sunrise Wednesday morning (think it was). after refusing the mission that was given to cory, Terry had to take it on.
Cory is still a house mate. I thought he was going again last week, but I guess not!
the voting system has changed. During the week, the public votes to save their favourites out of all the housemates, then, on the Sunday, the bottom three will be nominated by the house mates for eviction.
Nathan (the remaining web auditioner) won FNL last night, but as he is still on his first week, he is not in the voting deal yet, so the runnerup, travis, gets to find out who the bottom three is. He also gets the power to take one of the people out of the list of evictees and put another in (like one of last year's powers), and he also gets his nomination points doubled instead of the standard housemate's voting 1 and 2 points.
The winner of FNL becomes head of house for the week, which has been still given to Nathan. They also get dinner for two in a strategy room, where they can talk about any and everything, including evictions.
I had previously read about this strategy room on Behindbigbrother.com.
well, guess about all for now!
I'm mostly done with trying to please everybody in this world though; done and done! I've delt with so much crap lately, and, enough is enough!
til next time, RdFreak
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Date: 2008-05-10 07:22 am (UTC)Did Nathan get to have the dinner even though he doesn't qualify for the other rewards?
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Date: 2008-05-10 08:12 am (UTC)no, FNL kind of ended before we got to see whether Nathan joined in on the dinner. I didn't end up putting the stream on to find out. haven't done so for over a week; guess I didn't feel like listening to cory being an idiot! Lol