not tweeting here!

[rdfreak]

Well since stupid twitters are still not coming here, I did work yesterday, filling in for rB, so did the 7.5 hour shift. Always hard to get up out of bed so early in the morning.
Not feeling too happy with life right now, but i guess it's partly my fault for missing ciprinal for a few days, not that I try and rely on it, but it seems with my emotional rollercoaster, I have to right now. also, girly things doesn't help!
So consequently, I am not going to write too much for now. I just miss my ex, and I miss the one before that too, and I get very angry but there's nothing I can do but move on!
I need to forget about my past though else I'm never going to be happy, unless .. well .. I do find someone better.
I was actually feeling OK'ish, but then this morning I started thinking. it's not a good idea to get involved with B again, even though I've contemplated ringing him. I feel, before we got together, he made the move to get back in touch with me, it's my turn, but then again, I don't owe him anything; he is the one that had second thoughts (after realizing I wasn't up to his standards), dumped me and treated me so badly when I tried to talk to him about it. Why should I really care? cos I'm too nice, that's my problem and whether it's a good or a bad thing, I always give people way too much benefitting of doubt.. ah well; it will take me someone else to figure out that nobody like that is worth my time!
OK off I go.
as I mention though, so glad of my new friends and it will be good to catch up with someone newish on saturday, yeah!
til next time, RdFreak

Comments

[onlylisa.livejournal.com]

Winter weather doesn't help when you're feeling down I think.

[rdfreak.livejournal.com]

well no that doesn't generally help either I do admit. it's so cold; hard to get out there and do anything!