rdfreak

OK so the mystirious happenings of my neighbour continues ...
Yes, last night when I came back, I heard males talking. Then I kept hearing a male cough and no clock no more! so I dunno! Whether I has moved out or somethin who knows as I recalled hearing trucks on Monday evening. I just hope nothing bad has happened to her. No doubt I'd get the news if I asked M but I will leave her for Nan! :) gee I'm nice but she talks to her, not me. She figures that since I walk past her and ignore he, she'll do the same to me! so yeah meh I don't care! actually I know I use my blindness to my advantage sometimes but that's a good thing! really!
Well last night went OK but it was of course a new experience for me. We have all that ground to cover!
Today was nice and relaxing and I think I'll be right to show to school tomorrow - just in time for Learning to Learn, lovely stuff! Oh well think I can't really afford to miss much more of that. Plus s actually treats me like everyone else, yeahness! and today A came over but she didn't end up reading. she took a lot of my Public Life handouts home to scan so yeah for that! Think I'm getting a good system going there! She is much much bettter off scanning the work than I am and then she just emails it to me so it's really good! :)
I watched the 80's neighbours today (as well as the other one - on in 20 mins). actually Dad just left after he came to set my timer up to record at 11.30 so yeah for that! :)
I am currently cooking my tea now as there's nothing better to have it in front of the TV at 6.30. My table does not get used any more except occasionally when I have time to have breakfast (yes sad I know but I seem to prefer sleeping in these days and I can't really do both except for the weekends on Wednesday and "wag days"! :) Lol
I just turned the microwave off where I was cooking a potatoe and just took the vegies off the stove and am now waiting for the timer to go off for my sausages!
So yeah tonight, I watch Neighbours, then BigBrother! mmm wonder what's happening there? Someone might be about to leave or something - at least the adds kinda pointed to trouble - like someone did something! aaah who knows! And Bigbrother uncut at 9.30! Not that it's that exciting but oh well .. it shows you what happens to horney men - and women sometimes yeah yeah.
Well well my timer is going off so will leaviness for now.
Til Next Time, RdFreak

My puter is still soooooo screwed! honestly I didn't think accidently rebooting in the middle of an install could do so much dammage. Nah actually take it back! windows 2000 could get so dammaged! Dad came back from sydney last night and he's coming over later to look at it! I swear I have had sooo many damn probs with it this morning; it sucks so bad! The amount of times I've restarted is just amazing! and it is stuffing all my programs up. I can't use eudora for long. it says something about a eudora exception and that it's writing to the eudora.log file. well it gets locked on that so I have to reboot. then FlashFXP won't open when I try clicking on it from my desktop. I have definitely done some dammage somewhere - something to do with network settings I'm sure cos when I wait five mins for it to boot it says "preparing network settings" then after another five or so mins it says "loading personal settings" mmm so something to do with turningt network somethings on; who knows?! Maybe Dad and I will find that I should probably just reinstall windows; who knows?! I hate puters! :(
In other news, school wasn't bad yesterday! In learning to Learn we all went to the library to get shown how to use databases! there's heaps of them so I should go and check them out today from the swinny web site. Then in Public life, M did board notes again but this time she acknowledged me and decided she'd read them out as she was writing! so consequently I now have them and am able to type them up for T (who wasn't there) and R (who didn't get them all down) so yeah to me! Lol! I can be useful for a change! :) still, I have no idea what they're on about. we watched a vidio on Marksism and I still have no idea what that is! All I know is that our orral has to be done by Thursday cos that's when we'll be starting so yeah! After talking to S on Thursday, think I have a picture of what I am going to do. I am now going to combine my old idea with a new one. that way I'll have far more accurate things to say without waffle! And I can try and make seven minutes! go me! I have an internet joke that is extremely appropriate with the whole stereo-typing thing! so me gunna read that - that should take up maybe three mins or so! yeah! HD HD HD?!! Then I skipped infotech as I'd spoken to D about the assignment. I went back to mum's for tea and Nan was there.
Wednesday was my day off and I was feeling fine in the morning - so much better but then in the afternoon, my dodgy puter settings got me down again and, well, I had a breakdown totally. Mum and a came over cos they thought I was going to .. do "stupid things"?? .. as I was iluding, anyway! after a while (long while) they calmed me down. I also am upping my zoloft. Since that's what A has been going through and all .. Still have to let Doc know. am going soon as I have to get my ears cleaned again!
Oh yeah last night J came for tea! actually the plan was to go home after school but R, C and I ended up sitting in the cold and chatting for an hour and a half! why? don't ask! we hardly know. It was freeeezing! but I guess they can blame it on me! I know how to go on and on and on! Lol! But it was cool nonetheless! but I think we could have gone to the library or student loundge or something! instead, we were out on the seats underneath where the sun should have been!
Oh, I have now got the YTT vidio on puter thanks to D! finished getting it last night! when Flash actually decided to work. it now just pops up when it feels like it; how dodge!
Think we're all going to Mum's for a pre-mothers day dinner, or something. dunno!
Well that's all my happenings over the past few days.
Oh man I wish Young Talent time was still on! I always wanted to be on there! hey, me childhood years were spent in the 80's! There's somethin about the 80's that is really cool! I loved most of the music! and I hear the fashon was pretty terrible but obviously it was good at the time! I get so sad when I reflect sometimes. I was just saying to Mum and A Wednesday how everyone and everything has changed. It's kinda sad! But then, we can't stay kids forever! well I am, I just can't help it! but I mean young with no responsibilities!
Anyway .. me go!
Til Next Time, RdFreak

Yeah OK so I guess I will make another public entry since I am on a roll with these meme thinggies! Well today is the 1st of May! man, the first whole month of me being 25. not good! Now I am officially classed as the "older person" aaah! don't like it! the other day we were waiting for a class and the young just-out-of-school kids were sitting over one side, and "the older" ppl - 25 to about 60 were on the other. yes, I was still the youngest, so guess that is kinda coolness to still be called "the baby"! Lol "the baby of the elders" haha!
Well Nanna just left with dad. I went to Nans Wednesday after the guide dog graduation and study group! guide dog graduation was brilliant by the way! am so glad I went! yeah then study group was OK. actually sorry came home after that and Thursday I went to nans. I didn't go to infotech. Anyway went to the pidietrist (excuse spelling) and got supports - 200 bucks worth! :( anyway I have to get use to them for an extra hour each day so I guess I should wear them for three hours today.
I stayed over then went from there to school yesterday. That was OK but public life is really getting me down! apart from the fact all M did was board notes yesterday, probably hoping I'd say something cos if I did, she could have an excuse to start that crap about the "note taking" thing! aaaah! sickness! :( anyway i arranged to borrow R's but he said he'd send me the notes via email so that's good! At least my friends actually understand!
Yesterday afo Nan met me and we went to drop the Young talent time vidio off to D. He will tape it for me and I'll probably grab it to keep on this puter as well as the CD off him. Then will grab the tape soon! I'll actually be able to start burning CD's once I have this burner set up on my new hard drive!
Then Nan came over last night here to help me with cleaning and shopping and stuff and she left with Dad to go back to her house so he can fix her shower. The washer seems dammaged or something.
I am not in a bad mood at all right now! I'm actually sleeping a lot better too. Like every single night. Maybe it's the zoloft that my body finally got use too.
Anyway I have sooo much fun reading my friends page. of course not when they're depressing; I mean I just wanna do something for them! i love them all! and have made some great new LJ friends lately! so that's why I am doing all these interaction things (as I like to call them. There's a reason to my madness. I simply want to separate my actual "journal happenings" from the interactions. mad, but i'm funny like that! :)
( so here is another meme that everyone is doing! )
In other news, I think I will be trying to fix my LJ up today so I can have it like it was. Since an ex-LJ friend modified it, I haven't liked the text links as much.
Also I downloaded Eudora 6.1 this morning. Outlook was starting to sh-- me! I couldn't forward to my friends list without it yelling at me that it couldn't send for whatever random annoying reason.
Right I go for now!
I have a few recent additions that I need to catch up on. -- new friends journals. at least the rest of them!
I hate hate hate it how once we're past a few pages it only lets you view one day at a time! that is kinda sucky! anyway ..
Til Next time, RdFreak

well today proved a lot better for me! Last night and today I felt the best I'd felt in a long while!
Our public life teacher wasn't there today. We were told she's been sick for a few days and our lovely class cheered! :) Lol but not me! well yes, i was also glad that we didn't have to endure a wet, gloomey afo of Public life! Man I hate that subject! But the course is just really getting to me! i just got to now concentrate on getting high distinctions or something so i can get outta there and into my desired uni course!
Yeah it was wet today! wet wet wet! just hope we got all the water where we need it most! Apparently a patch of High Street was quite flooded so T and co were telling me!
mmmmm so now I'm getting tired quite early at nights. at least, I went to bed when I said I was tired in here last night - 8:33 but the intention actually wasn't to fall asleep. I had put a Main Menu on and was listening to that. of course, I can never rely on that when I am lying down at nights.
But now I am very tempted to listen to Harry Potter. I still haven't read from the middle of 3! everyone is amazed! I still can't get over the fact that it's for young children! The end of number 2 just asounded me! but the movie was brilliant! anyway I am downloading steven Fry's narration. It's better than Jim Dale's version i reckon!
Well off I go to listen! might start with the third one again!
Til Next Time, RdFreak

OK so I have my old client back but something is different about this one. I can't get to the subject line, but oh well!
I've done no work all day but who cares?! I am dealing crap. OK these good old memes seem to be dying out, so just cos I was bored, or am bored I should say - until neighbours comes on:
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wow wow wow! record for me I think! don't think I've ever been this long without writing in here. I have just simply not been bothered writing in here. Life is busy, and I get home and am so tired! I still come on the Net but can never be bothered writing. But I am catching up on LJs (at the moment, it is missmojorisins' at the moment. Yes, because I haven't been able to go through my friends page that much any more, I go to individual journals a lot and catch up that way.
But, I think I can say I have settled in quite well now. I have made plenty of friends - in fact everyone in our class is kinda close and we all seem to get along with each other quite well.
I have been so suprised at how everyone has responded to me this year compared with other years. but as I've told a couple of people, think it's because I haven't been relying on anyone to like "take me places", etc. I still stick to myself during class breaks and lunch breaks. I go to the canteen and mostly am by myself. Most of my friends go out but I just preferr to stay in campus cos by the time ya go sit down at a CAFE or something, it's time to get back!
I still haven't got in touch with the DLO yet, and for a while it didn't bother me, but now it's starting to pieve me off! I mean they are under-staffed but it's not our problem! Too bad if I had a booklist this year! as it happens I don't, fortunately! else I'd be real mad! Well Tertiary consultant J at RVIB is on the case so between us maybe I'll hear from them!
It's a month til my birthday! I can't wait! there's only two weeks til holidays after this, three til easter and four til my birthday/party. Am having it on the same day. I figured a 25th is just a *must! this will be the last one for a while though! It's gunna be huge - bigger than last year. I am kinda worried about how everyone will fit in here; I thought last year was a stretch! But I keep making new friends! If only I'd stop ... not! Nah I love em; they all rock my sexy sweaty socks (as I've been saying for a while now :)
Oh yeah, damn I forgot (and I just got reminded as my batery alarm on my phone gave me a message). My Talks phone is great! though my next bill will be huge as SMS's were kinda flying, but I have calmed down a little! I am not sure when I'll ever get to pay Nan back but will try as soon as I can! I feel like the SMS'ing clan now; it's great! :)
I have been doing a lot of confessing to my class! Basically everyone knows all about me now! The majority of us are doing the issue of "gay marridge" for this assignment in Public Life and so L interviewed me and that's how I got widely known! Lol but it's been great!
I am so tired! Hardly slept last night cos I have a sore throat! Hope I'm not gettin a cold! at least I have the day off tomorrow. I love Wednesdays off! It's just the best day to have off.
I called Mum and dad before in NewZealand. They're staying with Uncle D and aunt S. Dad gets back thursday and a will pick him up.
Right am seriously thinking about bed soon but will write more tomorrow.
Til Next Time, RdFreak

Well, it's been ages! and correction re: my previous entry, that was on the Monday I wrote it, not Sunday night as I'd thought at the time, Lol oh well!
So I went to orientation day and I find out, contrary to my belief we started the following week, I asked and was told we started classes the next day! Well, that happened, didn't it? Lol!
I would have damn well been on time Tuesday but I got extremely lost going to my building. But eventually I discovered where I went wrong so got there. Then didn't know where my room was so K from admin helped. Stories Cultures was good. O teacher was funny! I made my grand entrance and was making everyone laugh with my delightful tales of campus wandering!
We have a lot of the same group for all the classes, though a few of them vary. Public life was OK. Wednesday as I didn't have any homework just chilled here. Was already glad of a day off though! These long days are so tiring! am still ajusting again! Yesterday Learning to Learn was alright. Man we've got a big class though! Word processing was OK. didn't do anything. We set up our Swinburn accounts. So me now has two email addresses, not that I could log in to mine last night for some reason! *grr* will try again tonight and think I'll set it up to forward everything to my TPG one. Also if we know all and want to get exempt from the word processing class, we have to do all the assignments to prove it to her D.
Today, well am just tired! I didn't have to be there til 11 so I had a nice little sleep in. Then I met K at Blackburn station and we had a lovely chat. She was on her way to RVIB. So yeah today went alright. Learning to Learn and Public Life.
We have written pieces due next week for both those classes.
I feel like a different person. I am going to be sooo so so motivated this year! I am surprising myself actually as I am already taking down more accurate notes. and so far it's been great where the teachers will read out what they're writing. So this year, it's gunna be hopefully High distinctions baby! :)
So far, I am a drifter in our group. I'll hang out with different ppl at different times, but at the same time, stick to myself still a lot. That will change though, but another aspect I have changed in. I use to always have to have friends from the start, but now I realize I go there to study and that is number 1 for the time being until I do just click real well with someone.
Most have come out of year 12, some had come out end of 02 and had tried another course last year and didn't like it. and a few are mature aged! But going around introducing each other in Learning to Learn yesterday, it was amazing how many ppl were aiming to get into secondary school teaching!! It was literally like half the class! I was sooo pleased. I mean I thought I'd be the only one eventually going there from this course; but not by a long shot!
So yeah things are going along smoothish though I haven't spoken to the DLO yet. maybe next week! I still just love having no notetaker. I mean all through CAE it was like that, but I dunno, just love feeling like everyone else. Guess Vermont really started to haunt me for ever!
OK in other news Valentines day tomorrow! yeah yeah whatever. i remain hopeful! but that's my second name - Hopeful! lol!
OK I go! just thought I should update this then get on to my friends page. I will break tonight and do my writing tomorrow I feel!
Til Next Time, RdFreak

OK so look at the freakin time! What is going on with my sleeping patterns? Why can't I sleep? How come every second night I wake at 3 without fail and am resorted to turning the radio on in order to free up my boredum?? I am now wide awake. and then about 7, I can garantee I will feel the need to nod off again!
And then every other night I sleep like a baby!!! go figure go figure go figure GO! FIGURE!!
I'm sorry! I use to sleep perfectly every night but ever since I've been on the meds love, (Lol) but yeah maybe they are still worth it! though when I start back at TAFE I don't want this crud to be going on. really, I want to put all I have into this academic year, so screw them if I will be continuing this trend!
Actually this morning I know why I woke. I came home last night (about 10 from RVIB and being out for tea with M), and as it was so nice, I left my front door open, as I love doing! But smoke and lots of it woke me.
I have been smelling smoke over the past few days and I do not know where it's coming from! someone next door is probably burning off but why in the middle of the night??!! I dunno what is up with that but anyway! I jumped up and shut my door and got myself some grapes, came back to bed and listened to my Secret 7 tape! Lol! that was at 3!
Man do I normally go on about pointless rubbish in my LJ or is it just because it's so early in the morning?!
Damn I feel like getting my old lazy guide dog of-a Heartly up out of bed (where she is sleeping so soundly) and taking off for a lovely brisk morning walk! aaah yes! "as dawn broke" Lol (a quote from Yes what followed in my head by a sound of "dawn" breaking! Lol hahahaha!
aaaaah! Well I am doing O & M today around Swinburn. I think I will only need one session and that suits me fine! I am going to be sooo tired later! :( Knowing me I'll nod off a bit later.
Yesterday did nothing except go off to the sound editting seminar from 6 til 8 then went out to Ginwah with M! Twas sooo nice but got home quite late to a worried voice mail message from my dear Mother! aaaaaah! When will she ever give up on her famous lecture of how dangerous it is at night and how crazy it is to be catching a train and walking around?? Well can I help it that there's no busses? Can I help it that I absolutely hate cabs? And am I the only one thinking that anything could happen in "that cab" as well. It's just a matter of being there at the wrong time! It can happen any and everywhere!
Lol I cracked myself up last night though! Mum said to me "I'll have to get the cops to give you a call and a little reality check" so I hang up the phone and chuckled to myself "wnext thing I know, I'll have the cops giving me a call and I'll be like - oh Damn! what did I do???" Oh, yeah, thanks Mum!
OK I am curious! I wanna know who has been on my ftp site, downloading my dodgy net recordings? Lol! :):) I mean, I can obviously take them away if it's really worrying me but it's just kinda embarrassing ya know! :) Like I leave my site on last night (when out, and the night before while dozing in bed) and I get back to an extensive log on numerous ppl trying to connect but can't always do so (as I've limitted it to two users at a time sorry :) But the one who connects successful has got quite a few files of my ... um ... recordings! and the dodge thing is I can't tell who it is just by reading the log. i have to catch them in the act and monitor through the main users window! aaaah, I have to ask around! I am just too curious!
Monday I didn't do a lot. Oh I heard from my DLO finally! She is going to send me out an assessment form which I have to fill in and send back about how much support I'll need, etc. But she already knows I definitely don't need class-room support and would go mad if I had it, so at least that is established! Lol! and I even have my own braillenote so I don't need to borrow theirs! So what a delightful student I will be! Lol! um, yeah right! I ask for braille braille braille OK?? got it? good! :) Lol!
OK going to check my early-morning email! :)
Cheers
Til Next Time, RdFreak

OK well I have been putting off writing in this as I just didn't want to remind myself.
Well last Sunday night, i looked on the Herald Sun web site. it took me ages to find my sir name and I wasn't there! There was "Sm", "ll" but no "RD". so I thought either VTAC stuffed me up again or I didn't get an offer. I was half expecting it but also had thought i was in with a good chance with the TAFEs. My TER was quite decent.
Anyway I went off line and called Dad. I wanted to speak to A but she wasn't there. (wow, she really knows how to say the right things to me believe it or not)!
anyway she wasn't there, so I start bawling to Dad. The funny thing was, I was not as upset as I'd expected. i'm just so use to crying as a natural reaction/reflex, but thanks to Zoloft, I actually did remain reasonably calm.
I was (and still am) confident of a second round offer. But B had asked me what was going on so I eventually told her and had said I was surprised I didn't at least hear from swinburn, so she actually called the course co-ordinator for me of L Arts and she'd wanted me to call her at home yesterday which I did, and she was also surprised as my name didn't pop up on their system But she's quite sure someone will drop out so she'll know by Tuesday and will be able to call then and tell me if I have a spot with them. So yeah Vic uni is my only other hope for the second round. Oh and as she said yesterday, "there are always other options/pathways" which, I am also going to look intoo - like starting my arts degree with two fee paying subjects.
Anyway, so i'm not as bad as I use to be. i'm just taking one day at a time instead of thinking and worrying about the duture.
So basically that's been my week. I did go to J's for a swim last Tuesday which was awesome! It was 37 degrese! and I know there was something else but am blank! oh went here and there but mostly stopped here.
Nan came Thursday and left yesterday. She was helping Mum on friday. I came there for tea that night.
We went to Boxhill yesterday as I felt I needed to get myself aquainted again! I did get my sugar supplies again! :)
Yesterday afo I spoke to A then last night I called S who has B staying there and we had a cool chat actually. Though it sounded more like they were over the other side of the world than the next state - stupid telstra, Lol!
And yeah, about all. Tomorrow i have the Joy picnic then the rest of the week kickstart then Adelaid - rather packing Saturday and Nan is coming with me to Spencer that night.
OK off to read my well-overdue friends page. Haven't touched it for over a week so am bound to be going for a while! :) But I do still read everyone's and love them! - of course not when they're blue; that's not good!
(Well I congratulate my LJ friends who got a first round offer! Best of luck with enrolling, starting and all! :) :)
Til Next Time, RdFreak

"Everywhere You go!
Da Da Dardida da di da, I don't know the words" well I could listen to them as I have the song from the HomeAlone sound track in my christmas folder. (question self: why on earth am I repeating outloud what I'm typing???!!!) They said she was weird!
Why am I up sooo damn early? How tired will I be later?! (Yawn*
OK I was around at D's yesterday, and he got me addicted to SUPERSHOt" so I downloaded it last night and this morning I could not resist the temptation of getting up early to play it. Then of course I had to get on line to register it!
Less than a week til christmas and I feel like a little kid again! B pointed out to me Wednesday "you have a lot of things to look forward too"! yes, I guess I do which is a change! especially considering I have opened up a number of pathways for next year.
OK, I am not going to jump. I know I haven't written in here for a while, but guess I just haven't had the urge too. Sometimes I like to analyze in silence. But it's ridiculous hours like now, when I feel I should update!
Well yesterday I went to D's. Actually first I went to RVIB to speak to J tertiary consultant, but I arrived late then I feared she was busy as she'd slotted me in because I "urgently" had requested it. So after a chat with a clientless J, i left there (having realized I no longer felt the urge to see tertiary consultant, as I am happy enough with my choices for next year so feel I might not need to bother with changing any preferences, - more on that in a bit). So yeah I followed J's directions to Crush on Chappel Street where I bought some truffles. they are huuuuge, and just taste like our regular home-made ones. Beauty is I don't have to make them, just money instead Lol!
Then i went to flinders and caught the Frankston line to D's. It was a lovely experience! It was a good day too! Heartly was delighting herself in having a bath in the water bowl outside which is just sooooooo her. I was telling D she did that in training when we'd get home from our walks and led them to the water bucket, but Heartly certainly knew how to stay cool! Just put her legs in. Naughty Dog! Lol I just couldn't stop laughing yesterday as I heard this splashing and, what would ya know?! Lol! cheeky little Pup!! :)
So yesterday was good. Left about 8.30 in a cab and was sooo angry as it cost me 27 bucks! It's sooo gone up! Never again! I don't remember when I last caught a cab previous to last night but it was ages ago and way cheaper, so it was such a shock!
Wednesday I went to CAE to have lunch with V. That was cool! Then I went up to see if B could do a coffee with me, but decided not to as things were busy for them and it was way hot! So we chatted for a little bith there.
Tuesday I didn't do a lot. it was hot as so I just stayed here pretty much! Oh that evening I went to 201 for a pacmate seminar. I am gunna get one and sell my braille note (though I don't know when as I found out last night I didn't get the bursary again! stupid RVIB - how unlogical they are! I don't even have the right to ask them the reason apparently as last year I did and was told that they are not obligated to tell us. Well that is just plain wrong! What about when people aren't successful with job applications. they have a right to ask why! I say RVIB needs to take a good hard look at themselves. Man i get angry?! I mean to be fair they have done me a lot of good over the years, but in my opinion over the past ten years they've gone down hill and I feel they're starting to treat us quite unfairly at times! and I won't even mention the braille issue! *grrrrr*)
anyway, this is a happy post! happy happy happy! ... ahem ...
Tuesday night J ended up staying over which was awesome!
Monday morning I went on the internet first thing (well about 9.15 actually) and mannaged to call up my VCE results. As expected I went crap in History. In fact I was disapointed as at first that's the only score I could get. And a 19 . something. Yeah that wasn't surprising at all but it just wouldn't co-operate and reach my ENTER score page. But eventually it did - I spose when one less VCE student was on there! Lol!
And man I was majorly shocked to read "62.40" wow! I mean I was sooo shocked that it rose from a low 46.6 last year to this! considering I did so bad with History! But then I suppose, for some reason the re-calculation made the difference. I would love to know how, but damn I am not complaining! I mean, of course it's still not the best score but I was really surprised at it. I kept cursoring over it to see whether I was hearing Jaws correctly!
So it definitely puts me in a tertiary placement for next year! We'll see what offers I end up with if more than one.
Then I went to CAE as I'd tried to call B to let her know and also to ask what the "aggrigate score" was as I keep forgetting. Anyway I met A in the city and she came with me. So had a lovely chat to B and as usual, was very supportive and encouraging!
Then A and I went to RVIB where we met S for lunch! Was cool!
Then that is up to date! and I have been on the net for an hour now, Lol!
Today I will have to prepare for the big Monday night! :) can't wait!
Til Next Time, RdFreak