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Well, I am meant to be at parents but I feel a bit too stuffed up for that. Got a bit of an annoying throat and a bit headachy! :( Today Shel came over. we had lunch from the bakery and now I got more damn chocolate as Mum won't be able to make marsbar slice last night cos A, my wonder-sis ate the marsbar/s. (love ya anyway A ya freak :) man I never have called her that before! haha!
Last night I had the best time with 52girl .. she got here around 4.30. we chatted for a while course (as if that stopped the whole time) then we went out to Poppies for tea (near the post office I got me passport day before yesterday) it was cool. she paid cos she said that was "the least she could do for staying over" so that was nice, but no necessary! Friends have my permision to stay for free! .. haha, everyone, call me a friend .. not! :) Anyway we got back with some left overs of mine but will have it for tea tonight or tomorrow or something cool like that! Then she spent ages burning a heap of my CDs to her laptop. I kept telling her how amazed I was, cos she's the only friend who's actually liked the good majority of my CD collection. .. so while she was doing that we just chatted some more (obviously heh) and she very kindly put my cDs back into alphabetical order the way I liked them! I had them quite untidy again scattered all over the shelves, but, she went one better than I had done and put all my sound tracks and compilations together too! That was awesome, and I proclaim to keep it that way!
anyway she left at 4.30 this morning Lol! I had been awake. in fact I'm kinda tired now. she apologized but I told her not at all! was too cool having her over, and hope I can meet up with her and G again! I will probably send her an sms just to make sure the damn cab came to take her to the airport OK. She called them again from my veranda even though she had called them last night! stupid cabs! *grrr
Yeah so shel left bout 2.30. was going to catch the train back with her and get off at Mitcham but luckily I didn't end up doing that.
We called Hot-gossip and was being complete idiots, lol it was funny at the time but I always wind up feeling guilty! ah well!
I'm a freak, that's my name I guess!
Til Next Time, RdFreak

anyone who is not using anything other than eloquence, skip this entry?!

caesure caesure caesure, I am having a caesure!
OK so that was very stupid and immature of me, but I'm a stupid and immature person!
Why do I feel so angry right now? I hate this hole I've all of a sudden put myself in. I am sooo mad at Mary I wanna scream! if it wasn't for her, I'd probably still be doing something in life. no, couldn't go to US but that wouldn't matter. would eventually get there! *grrrr I have never been so mad for this long at anybody. Why must she go on and get away with it? why why why why why?! *blood pressure rising, hello!*
People make me sick!
I just wanna crawl into a hole and stay there forever! Nothing in this world is stable. No-one is. No-one knows what's gonna happen tomorrow! I wish I did! then I'd be happy!
Mary didn't even have the decenc, or, felt she has any kind of moral obligation to even email me back! She just got away with it hook line and sinker cos she just always believed that I'd never do anything. she thought I wasn't capable,. wrong! right! I dunno! I think I may still call student rights, or DLO. probably am way too late! that's the way life goes!